Posts tagged health

Fear and aging in NYC

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2 years ago
by bangbang023 in

This is a sensitive subject, but I decided that putting it out there may help me cope a little better.

Recently, I realized my hair is thinning on the crown (back, top) and it’s really starting to stress me out. To be honest, I’ve already reacted and started using Rogaine, with the intent of stopping the thinning, if not growing back some of the lost hair. The only problem here is that you have to continue using the stuff, otherwise any newly grown hair will be lost within a few weeks. This means that I’m probably going to be stuck using the stuff for the rest of my life. I’m only 25. That’s, presumably, a lot of life left ahead.

It’s scary facing an issue like this for two reasons. Beyond the obviously vain reasons that serve as the first half of this equation, just the notion of accepting that I’m no longer 18 and invincible to the world is scary. It’s such a weird thing to look at, especially when I don’t have a set career path or any real idea where I want to go in life. Hair loss? Teeth problems? This is heavy stuff that I’m not sure I’m ready for.

How does everyone else handle growing up and getting old? Does everyone get freaked out by this stuff or am I simply over thinking things?

Another goodbye to Neowin

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2 years ago
by bangbang023 in

It’s never an easy decision and the first go round didn’t actually last all that long, but I’ve decided to leave Neowin, again.

There’s really not much to say about it, to be honest. I haven’t been writing any news, as I’ve mentioned before, and my recent health issues have really sapped away any motivation I would normally have to write. When I do get the urge to write, I want it to be on this site, even if it is for free and won’t get many views. I want to see what I can do here as far as mixing my person life with my general viewpoints and see if I can attract more visitors. I’m already considering posting a “Bang On” column here, once I actually find something to rant about.

Thanks to Mike, by the way. He and I used to clash a lot, but we’ve since overcome that and he dealt with a lot of heat for supporting my usually controversial columns.

The flowers are going to be huge

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2 years ago
by bangbang023 in

This rain has to stop. It’s seriously depressing and, even worse, preventing me from going outside and doing stupid things like playing basketball with a yet to be healed fractured rib. Haven’t we had enough of this stuff? I get it: April showers bring May flowers. It’s May, so out with the rain and in with those damn bee bringing flowers.

I don’t know if it’s the rain or maybe work or what, but I’ve been dealing with a few things recently. For one, I can’t find any inspiration to write anything, at all. I can’t write any poems and I can’t even muster up a story or two for Neowin. If it wasn’t for my length of time on staff and the resulting pseudo tenure, I’d probably be out on my ass right now.

Probably a little more important than my writing, is the fact that, for the past three days, I’ve been dealing with varying levels of lightheadedness. Saturday, I could barely lift my head off of the pillow without feeling dizzy beyond tolerance. It’s been better the past two days, but the feeling is still there and does serve as a hindrance, sometimes. I wish I had a solution or, perhaps, even health insurance.

I’m probably going to try cranking out more journal entries, by the way, until I get my creative juices flowing again. I’m starting to crave music again, so that’s usually a good sign.

More definition, but so out of shape

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

The human body is such a complex machine, isn’t it?

It’s no secret that I have a very skinny build. I’m about 6’1″ tall and weigh between 145 – 150 pounds. Over the past two years or so, though, I’ve started to finally fill out and some very basic work outs and my physical activity have helped to tone my body a bit. For the first time in my life, I have some nice muscle definition, especially on my upper torso. While it may not be something to brag about, it still helps build my self confidence.

The funny thing about all of this, though, is the fact that I’m more out of shape than ever before. Cardiovascularly, I was, easily, three time more fit when I was 18 than I am now. If I play basketball, my legs give out so quickly. At work, I burn out more quickly that I would prefer and, sometimes, more quickly than what’s safe for me considering some of the work I have to do.

Once the weather gets warmer, I really need to work on this. I need my stamina back. I hope that if I can get it back, I won’t feel so damn tired all of the time.

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