Posts tagged angry

Normalcy

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

Perhaps, not yet, but it’s the onset of turrets
An impulse from the chest from all I’ve surpressed
It hasn’t caught yet, but it’s under and on breath
The safest place to be is further than arm’s length
Cause the urge ain’t gone yet, it’s completely conceivable
I can feel it seeping through, the surge is unbelievable
I’ll become the evil dude, the one to stay and see it through
And bring nothing but distress when I really should give peace to you
But I am just the least to you, another broken piece to you
A cog beside a wheel that lacks a little grease to you
I shouldn’t have to preach to you or make a fucking reach to you
You should see the work I do and everything it means for you
So, fuck your little reasons dude and fuck these funny feelings
The ones stealing from the picture and leaving portraits peeling
Envy on the floor again while you’re across the ceiling
I should be fucking proud, but I’m lost and fucking reeling
Concealing what I’m feeling and convinced I’m fucking dealing
It simply isn’t logical, this isn’t fucking healing
This feeling is Goliath and I can not be it’s David
I try to force it out again, but it decides to stay in
And every night and day in, the playground that I play in
Is a minefield of my own and not the safest haven
I wish that I could trade in a cloud or two for normalcy
Cause I truly fucking know that there is something wrong with me

Nemesis

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

Your power is confined to this temporary situation
Taste of what is factual hidden in this dissertation
Craving like the darkness for a drink of what’s to spill
Uncaring and so heartless, I am driven by temptation’s thrill

You’ve become my nemesis
As I seek for an end to this
You’ve become my nemesis
And I fiend for an end to it
An end to you

Not a man and never more, nothing but a jester whore
Reality is emptiness and a taste of what’s in store
Chauffeur to the desperate and the villains all the same
A smile doesn’t matter much when the teeth have all been stained

You’ve become my nemesis
As I search for an end to this
And I fiend for an end to it
And an end to you

I won’t beg and I won’t shatter
Silent through what doesn’t matter
Watching as you twitch and clamor
Praying for a sound to stammer
Every demon that’s held dear
Every breath behind your jeer
Mingle til they see the day
When all your angels go away

You’ve become my nemesis
As I search for an end to this
And I fiend for an end to it
And an end to you
End to you
End to you
Little evil messages that will be the end of you

Notes: The music that would accompany these lyrics is heavily inspired by Tool and A Perfect Circle. I’ve been listening to them a lot, lately.

Chains of Paralysis

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

I’m so sick of the chains that take every word away
Letters erased that could take all the hurt away
They could settle my nerves today and make it all better
But every damn person hates every damn letter
And I’m so fucking fed up with the blood on my lips
From biting my tongue every time that I’m pissed
If a thought can exist should it be such a crime
To speak from the heart with these words from the mind?
Cause time after time I get lectured and beaten
For thinking this way, for whatever the reason
First it was humor and then my analysis
The silence you want is this mental paralysis
So, drink from these chalices and taste all the blood
Every thought from my veins that I send you with love
I don’t care if I suck or if you give a fuck
I’ll do this for me cause these words have my trust
Cause when I’m set to bust and erupt with a passion
These fucking words help to calm the reaction
No matter what’s said, no matter what happens
They’re here to listen, not seek a retraction
Cause when I get all trapped in thoughts that consume me
I need to release them, the feeling is soothing
If people won’t listen, if people don’t give a shit
I’ll write it all here, I’ll write ’til I finish it

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