Xpression.v2

Well, Melanie left today for a week long vacation to Disney with her family. I’m glad she’s going to get some time to have some real fun in the self proclaiming “happiest place on earth”, though I can’t help but feel a bit selfish and be really bummed out that I won’t get to see her or talk to her much, at all, during this time.

It’s just weird: I’ve spent every single day (except one) of the summer, so far, with her and I’ve been more than happy to do so. Some people would expect us to be sick of each other and, if this was any other person, I would be, but she’s just different and so fun to be around, even if we’re doing nothing at all. Now, I have to go back to my old life (kind of) for a week.

One thing I want to do, during this week, is hang out with Joe. We haven’t had much time together in the past few months and it’d be nice to chill with one of the few friends I have and, since he’s basically a brother to me, it’s a little more meaningful than that. Hell, I just want to play basketball until we can’t play anymore and then do it all again the next day.

All in all, if I seem a little testy this week, I apologize. I’m going to be in a bad mood as I miss Melanie and, well, you know how I get.

Ok, perhaps the exclamation point wasn’t needed, but, for all I know, the internet was a barren wasteland without me. Shut up. I need my delusions.

Obviously, the main reason I was gone was because of the baseball road trip with Joe. It was pretty cool. Cleveland was the nicest stay and the only game that we didn’t leave early because of rain. I’m not sure I need to talk too much about the day to day details, though, since I had the Twitter posts going the entire time I was gone.

What I would like to talk about is how my life has changed so much since we planned the trip. I wanted to go so badly because it would be a means of escaping the life I had here. I would get away for a week and none of it would follow me. Little did I know that I would find love and happiness and so much more in the time between planning and leaving on June 23rd. I actually wound up missing Melanie and home the entire time. Life is good for me, now. Sure, I’m still light years behind where I should be with my career, but as far as my personal life goes, things are very good for me and I don’t see a need in running from it, anymore. It’s a weird feeling, but I won’t complain too much.

Another reason I haven’t written much is that I’ve also been spending a lot of time with Melanie. We won’t be seeing each other today because she has family obligations, but, otherwise, we spend almost every day with each other once I get out of work. We always manage to have fun one way or another and I’m dying to be in her pool with her right now because it’s humid as hell and we have the AC off in my house.

All in all, though, things are good. I have to find a way to motivate myself more at work, though. One can only be stepped on so many times before they lose a little of the pep in their step. I’m trying my best to rectify things and get back on track to moving up, but I also want to, at least, enjoy my summer with Melanie before really buckling in and pushing it hard at work. It may not be the brightest decision for the long term, but maybe I need to enjoy the present, for once.

Excuse me if this has all been a bit scattered. I have no attention span today.