Xpression.v2

A happy birthday to my mom. She’s helped out a lot since I’ve moved out and it’s immensely appreciated. Thank you, mom.

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The song is absolutely kick ass and the video is decent enough. Someone explained it on Youtube saying that it’s about a guy given natural talent who decides to waste it and exploit it in the pursue of money. I don’t know why I couldn’t see that myself.

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I’m not much of a writer, not much of a friend
I can’t sing for anything, I do not have strength
I am just a dreamer, but I have no dreams
Just damn hesitation and a lack of all means
I was nothing…
Just nothing at all
But now I can see…

I am playing with words and I’m toying with melody
Picking up thoughts that just suddenly fell on me
I was that guy who was lost in the world
But now that I got you…
I’m the guy who got the girl

I had waited for days and I counted them all
I was drinking and cursing and rushing my fall
I wanted you so bad, saw this was my chance
To find what was missing, to hold someone’s hand
I was nothing…
Just nothing at all
But now I can see…

I am playing with words and I’m toying with melody
Picking up thoughts that just suddenly fell on me
I was that guy who was lost in the world
But now that I got you…
I’m the guy who got the girl

One more chance
Was all I wanted
A chance to be happy
Right there I saw it
I was that guy and you were that girl
Suddenly finding ourselves in this world
And now I see..

I am playing with words and I’m toying with melody
Picking up thoughts that just suddenly fell on me
I was that guy who was lost in the world
But now that I got you…
I’m the guy who got the girl
I am that guy
Who one day got the girl
I am that guy
Who one day got the girl

Notes: An acoustic song. Think along the lines of a song like “Hey There, Delilah”.

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I’m sick of them both. Can someone just hit the mute button?

John McCain. The guy is a tad on the old side and will probably wind up getting lost in the white house as he’s looking for a phone to call his friend, Joe Plumber. The guy will also, probably, wind up blowing a Middle Eastern country off of the map if someone over there sneezes the wrong way. The real problem with him, though, isn’t him at all. It’s Sarah Palin. Have you heard any of the debates? At least McCain tries to answer the questions before failing miserable. Palin just skirts around the questions like there were cones on an obstacle course. You know energy, we get it.

Barack Obama. Excuse me, but everyone needs to get off this guy’s dick. He has almost no experience. Granted, this lack of exposure may help him be a bit more pure of heart, but it also means he hasn’t handled many real problems. Also, let’s face it, he’s a politician, so how pure can he be? I’m sure he’ll do great while thanking everyone before he speaks. Oh and we get it, Bush is evil and McCain is just as evil because he’s Republican, too. We can’t skip over Joe Biden, either. The guy is a nut job, on his own. To make it worse, when he speaks, he uses the same old rhetoric that we’ve heard for years and years. I’d like to know what goes on in his head, but I’m actually too scared to truly want to find out.

This has been another early morning, “just woke up” rant brought to you by someone who cares sometimes.

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I really do want to write a poem. I love writing, but my inspiration is shot to hell. I’m content with life, now, and while I would never give it up, it also means I am going to have to start finding different sources of inspiration if I want to put out anything other than love poems.

It’s a weird catch 22: If I am miserable, I can write some really good material and really pump it out consistently as I try to work through it and find happiness. When I find that happiness, however, my writing suffers greatly. Is there a balance between the two that I can find or am I too emotional of a writer to ever really find that perfect blend of happiness and personal success with my writing?

I hope I get something out, soon. I’ve tried a few times today with an idea I had a week ago. I should have written it then, but I was pre-occupied and never took the half hour to type it out on my phone. I should have. It’s a good idea, but I lost that driving motivation and emotion that I had about it when it first struck me. Damn me.

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This is the video for Weezer’s second single, “Troublemaker”, off of their red album. Kick ass song and pretty simple, yet cool, video.

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Good Idea:
Wendy’s. Seriously, how can anyone go back to loving McDonald’s burgers after having a Wendy’s burger? They’re so juicy and greasy and heart stoppingly good. Sure, every time you eat a Wendy’s burger, an angel goes into cardiac arrest and dies, but it’s ok, because it tastes so damn good. Plus, I’m sure there’s Wendy’s in heaven, too, so the angels have no one to blame but themselves.

Bad Idea:
Who decided that the latest trend in men’s jeans should be skin tight and worn well below the ass? Yes, I wear my pants a little low compared to old standards (they aren’t at my armpits, so shoot me), but this is ridiculous. When you have to walk around like a penguin and hold your pants up with one hand, it’s no longer cool. What the hell is wrong with people? There’s a difference between wearing your pants low and simply not completing the process of getting dressed. Hike that shit up and lets add some bagginess while we’re at it.

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I have to start getting into the habit of writing on this site more.

Life has been a little chaotic, lately. Work has been full of drama and stress. The department, overall, is in shambles because of one lazy employee. When one person gets away with doing nothing, it really casts a cloud over the heads of everyone else who works their butts off. Granted, I got another award for MVP of the department for the quarter (2 out of 3 this year), but it doesn’t change the fact that this one weak link needs to go for things to turn around.

In other work related news, I have received a watch from Best Buy for being employed there for five years. It’s such a crappy watch. Can you believe the band is actually rubber like those cheap $5 watches you get at CVS? Not even synthetic leather or something. What a way to thank me for my years of service.

Other than that, I’m just enjoying life being in a loving relationship. Melanie even told me that I look younger than when we first met and, to be honest, I feel so much more youthful and energetic again. It’s amazing what some happiness can do to a person.

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I will never be perfect, I will always have flaws
It doesn’t matter the reason, it doesn’t matter the cause
It’s just a matter of law that we all have our faults
We just need to improve through the lessons we’re taught
But I can get so distraught because I want some improvement
It might sound a bit crazy, it may sound a bit stupid
This need to be better for the sake of what’s precious
She knows what I’m saying, she knows whats my message
Cause I hold on to lessons and the pain that I went through
This point wasn’t easy, it was so hard to get to
And while complacency gets you some time for relaxing
It can also be painful and so god damn detracting
As the whole world is passing and leaving you stranded
I went through the trials so I just understand it
She deserves better, she deserves all my passion
So I won’t just sit back, but instead I’ll take action
I’ll be by her side, no matter what happens
I will give her a boost when she’s losing some traction
I will never be passive if it’s not what she needs
I will do it for her sake, not “a thank you” or “please”
Cause the man that you see will never be perfect
But I’ll strive to be better, for her sake, it’s worth it
When change has this purpose, it will always be right
One more lesson I carry as I sit here tonight

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So, Melanie was a little bored and this is what comes out of it. Why am I the chick?

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