There’s a lot to live up to, the bar has been raised
I can’t help but stare and get lost in a daze
And while I’m off in the gaze, I find myself so afraid
What if I can’t reach it? Is it too far away?
Can the bar be attained? Can I simply deliver?
There’s just too many questions [...]
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I’d like to find the inventor of insecure synthetics
And choke him for a bit, just choke him ’til I get it
Cause I don’t understand every damn desire
To conceal away the honesty and wear the label liar
But why do you aspire to change those pretty colors?
Explain to me the reason to change them to another
Let’s say [...]
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What’s the color of the wool of the lamb that you’re seeing?
Is it pure in it’s whiteness or black and deceiving?
Is the darkness so clear because this light is fleeting?
Or is the nature of me to assume that it’s leaving?
Cause I’m screaming for reasons, but I’m no longer cheating
Or maybe I am because the rules [...]
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When did I learn to bite on my tongue?
I wish to go back and then leave it undone
I would run to the teacher and stop him for one
And for second I then might just block out the sun
So I can knock out the one who taught me this silence
The person who taught me this patience [...]
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From the Reservoir (5/19/2008)
I’ve grown sick of the nonsense and non stop barrages
I’ve painted the targets but I try to stay harnessed
And under control with my hands on the dials
As I face all these tests and these nerve bending trials
But control’s not my style, in the past I would lose it
I would flip every lid [...]
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Cooling Nutrition (5/19/2008)
The walls are creeping in and there’s no one around me
The nightmares began in the moment they found me
Held me down, bound me, and broke down the mind
Not letting me go while there’s hope down inside
And I know that the light could chase them forever
But the darkness is here and we lay here [...]
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Painted Weak (5/14/2008)
I wonder what you think when you’re reading all these lines
When you’re hanging on the vibe of this analyzing mind
When my pride is on the line and it’s right before your eyes
Do you understand that I don’t exaggerate or lie?
That it’s really simply fine for me to show my emotions
Exposing them all in [...]
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There’s two sides to this that have begged for attention
One has maturity and one no disgression
Their suggestions are based on emotions and lessons
And pure blinding hatred that comes with this tension
At the mention of fighting, I’m left in suspension
As they argue their points for this head’s best direction
A chance for perfection or a test of [...]
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In this time as I transition and step off the precipice
It can be hard to stay so level and never question this
Have I invented this as way to handle problems
Or can it be much more after I have gone and solved them?
Cause I was on the bottom and was drowning in the apathy
Alcohol and scars [...]
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I’m creatively exhausted, but too proud to force it
I just wish I had control of the flow from this faucet
I know I haven’t lost it, but where’s the cohesion?
The strings to connect it, the rhymes and the reasons
But I really don’t need them if I go with this mindset
A little bit of this and that, [...]
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