Randomness from an overactive mind
lyrics
At the Show
05 years ago
by bangbang023
in lyrics
At the Show (3/2/2006)
I’m sitting on my hands to try focus on my writing
But I can’t come to a stand, feeling hopeless but I’m rhyming
In the shadows where you find me with the volume ever growing
And the music in my ear to help express what I’ve been holding
Cause I’m tired of the scolding and of all my fucking hatred
I’m sick of losing words while you test my fucking patience
And this is how I take it, I just throw that volume skyward
Head banging it away til there’s nothing left on my nerve
So flail your fucking hands and elevate that body
Take it to the band and leave it disembodied
Come and join the fans and let it fucking go
Nobody stands a chance, now let it fucking blow!
So, go!
Dance!
Everybody scream!
And let them jump around and sweat in ecstacy
Jumping til it bleeds and everything’s exposed
That’s the way we jump when we’re at the fucking show
That’s the way we jump when we’re at the fucking show
That’s the way we jump at the fucking show
In the front we’re going deaf, but too busy going mental
The thrashing never stops even when we’re sentimental
Cause those people in the back would kill to fill our spaces
So we need to fucking jump and present our fucking cases
Cause everybody’s earned this, but we’re the one’s who need it
We’re tearing at the seems of the clothing of the cheated
When everything’s been seeded and the gun is cocked and loaded
Our feet up off the ground by the pressure we’ve been holding
So flail your fucking hands and elevate that body
Take it to the band and leave it disembodied
Come and join the fans and let it fucking go
Nobody stands a chance, now let it fucking blow!
So, go!
Dance!
Everybody scream!
And let them jump around and sweat in ecstacy
Jumping til it bleeds and everything’s exposed
That’s the way we jump when we’re at the fucking show
That’s the way we jump when we’re at the fucking show
That’s the way we jump at the fucking show
(slows down)
Let’s slow this down a minute and take it for a spin
Some people have their pills, this is my own medicine
Sweat pouring from my skin, heat spilling from my heartache
I’m busting with the pain til every fucking scar breaks
And if all this shit is our fate, I’ll go with double doseage
A note for every heart break, prescription for the motion
Cause everytime I’m jumping my entire world is perfect
So get off your fucking ass and learn to make this worth it!
So, go!
Dance!
Everybody scream!
And let them jump around and sweat in ecstacy
Jumping til it bleeds and everything’s exposed
That’s the way we jump when we’re at the fucking…
Go!
Dance!
Everybody scream!
And let them jump around and sweat in ecstacy
Jumping til it bleeds and everything’s exposed
That’s the way we jump when we’re at the fucking show
That’s the way we jump when we’re at the fucking show
That’s the way we jump when we’re at the fucking show
That’s the way we jump when we’re at the fucking show
That’s the way we jump at the fucking show!
Notes: This is just a hard rocking, Limp Bizkit style song. I’ve been frustrated and tired of thinking and I just remembered how fun it can be at a rock show sometimes, so I wrote about it. This is one of those songs that I wish I could one day perform. It would make the crowd go nuts, I know.
Questions From Inside (Why?)
05 years ago
by bangbang023
in lyrics
Questions From Inside (Why?) [2/12/2006]
I choke on the air as it burns up my lungs
The panic attack, let me swallow this gun
And end it all here, let me die out in color
One for them all and no love for another
Why…
Why…
Why won’t you leave me and go away?
Why can’t you see me and choke on this hate?
Why doesn’t anyone listen to scripture?
Why won’t the truth fucking censor this picture?
I twitch in my skin cause this suit doesn’t fit me
The people around me, the platform to lift me
I need to escape from the broadcasting signal
Covered in loathing to keep it all simple
Why…
Why…
Why won’t you leave me and go away?
Why can’t you see me and choke on this hate?
Why doesn’t anyone listen to scripture?
Why won’t the truth fucking censor this picture?
Why…
Why…
Why…
Why…
I’ve grown in a shell and I’m comfortable in hiding
No people around me, nobody there lying
I’ve grown in this hell and I’m comfortable in dying
Alone in this world with nobody for lying
Why won’t you leave me and go away?
Why can’t you see me and choke on this hate?
Why doesn’t anyone listen to scripture?
Why won’t the truth fucking censor this picture?
Why
Why won’t you leave me?!
Why
Why can’t you see me!?
Why
Why can’t you choke on this hate?!
Why
Why don’t you listen to me…..
Notes: I’m not sure how to describe the sound of it. It’s heavy, but heavy rock, not metal. I guess it could be compared, somewhat, to something like Breaking Benjamin or a band I’ve recently discovered, 10 Years. It’s sort of a mix, though. It’s probably the style I would choose to go with if I were in a band.
Acquittal
06 years ago
by bangbang023
in lyrics
Acquittal (1/20/2006)
Everybody’s telling lies with their phoney alibis
Their tears are falseified and they’re used as their disguise
Tinted windows on their eyes concealing what they hide
In the chambers of their mind where everybody’s blind
They’re all hoping we won’t find anything that’s classified
Flowing with the tide to keep the ocean on their side
And they’re showing us no sign of the worlds as they collide
The beauty fits the face but the face won’t fit the crime
It just won’t fit…
It just won’t fit…
From the trailer trash can to the wealthiest of man
Everybody’s tuning in and it’s only cause they can
They’ll never understand how it’s all done underhand
Cause this guy had played a role that earned him lots of fans
But his wife inside the van and the glove upon his hand
Should make this shit so easy, here’s the verdict as he stands
We can’t find this guy guilty and we pray you understand
The facts all fit the crime but the crime won’t fit the man
It just won’t fit…
It just won’t fit…
It just wont fit!
(It won’t fit…)
It won’t fit!
(It won’t fit…)
It just won’t fit
(It won’t fit)
It won’t fit
(It won’t…….)
“You must aquit” is what he said
It won’t fit, the verdict’s dead
All this shit that we’re fed
It won’t stick in my head
I’m getting sick from what’s been said
Another dick, another dead
The pieces fit, there’s nothing left
Except the voice inside my….
It just wont fit!
(It won’t fit…)
It won’t fit!
(It won’t fit…)
It just won’t fit
(It won’t fit)
It won’t fit
(It won’t…….)
Notes: It’s a heavy rap rock song. I think the message should be clear enough.
Fever
06 years ago
by bangbang023
in lyrics
Fever (12/29/2005)
My mind screams, defines me, I can’t escape these ways
You’ll find me still trying though I can’t break this pain
You tempt me to give in and simply accept rage
Don’t tease me, just leave me, before I break this cage
I feel, I feel, I feel
Like I am losing my mind
I feel, I feel, I feel
Like all the shadows are mine
The voices in my head keep driving me insane
The choices, am I dead? Can someone stop the rain
You tempt me to slip in and give in to hate
You tease me, no breathing can subdue this rage
I feel, I feel, I feel
Like I am losing my mind
I feel, I feel, I feel
Like all the shadows are mine
I never wanted this
I never wanted this
Take it away from me
Take it away from me
I never wanted this
I never wanted this
Need it to stay with me
Need it to stay with me
So I snap and I break and I just let it go
All this crap that I take is all that I can know
So fuck me and fuck you and let’s put on this show
You’re ducking, you’re nothing, you’re drowning in the flow
I feel, I feel, I feel
Like I am losing my mind
I feel, I feel, I feel
Like all the shadows are mine
I feel, I feel, I feel
Like I won’t ever be fine
I feel, I feel, I feel
Like I am trapped in my mind
I feel, I feel, I feel
I feel, I feel, I feel
I feel, I feel, I feel
I feel, I feel, I feel
Fever won’t break in time
Notes: It’s a hard hitting rock song, similar to a Korn style. I just discuss how hard it can be, at times, to control my temper/anger.
Control This
06 years ago
by bangbang023
in lyrics
Control This (12/21/2005)
This direction has led me so far from perfection
I’m venting out all my aggression
It’s how I operate and I tolerate
Cause depression left me with mental impressions
I need someone to see my lesson
Of the constant hate I can’t tolerate
So please teach me and set me free
Show me everything that I need…
Expose the ways to control this pain
And I’ll throw away all my deceit
It’s on going though it’s not there for the showing
The incisions are constantly flowing
Reminding me of the times I bleed
And it’s growing the more that I fail at controlling
Give me all the drugs for the slowing
Erasing the taste of my own disgrace
So please teach me and set me free
Show me everything that I need…
Expose the ways to control this pain
And I’ll throw away all my deceit…
The past of rage that I can not escape
Forced it down inside, I told it to wait
And I asked the pain in my own bashful way
If it could fade away for one more day
Just one more day…
Just one more day…
But now I can’t breathe!
Now I can see!
How I will always bleed
I listen to screams!
I hear them in me!
I’m down on my knees
Please take this away!
I’m going insane!
I have been led astray
Abduct all this pain!
And leave me to gain!
Make it all fade…
Make it all fade…
Make it all fade!
So please teach me and set me free
Show me everything that I need…
Expose the ways to control this pain
And I’ll throw away all my deceit
The past of rage that I can not escape
Forced it down inside and told it to wait
I ask the pain in my own bashful way
If it could fade away for one more day
Notes: This song is definitely in the styling of Staind, heavy rock. It’s about knowing the hurt is there but praying for the ability to ignore for just one more day.
Deaf Exasperation
06 years ago
by bangbang023
in lyrics
Deaf Exasperation (12/5/2005)
I’m staring out a window screaming
Can anybody out there hear me?
I’m freeing my demons
Please just listen…
And I’m on your rooftop crying
To the world from which I’m hiding
Do you see me? Can you hear this?
No one listens, be alone now
I thought I was done with crying
Was everybody out here lying?
I hate this, embrace this
You never listened…
And I’m here in this basement crying
Desparation’s in my writing
I’m rocking and praying
No one listens, I’m alone now
I could never gain attention
And I’ve learned to hate perfection
You hold it, I loathe it
I can not listen
Fuck everyone and your perception
I don’t care what’s my intention
Believe this, I need this
Can you listen? No you can’t now
No you can’t now
No you can’t now
No you can’t…
Label me as the broken fallen
Stay with me my dear exhaustion
I need this, I bleed it
Are you listening to the sound now?
I hate this…
I breathe this…
I need you now!!!!!!!
Fuck everyone and your perception
I don’t care what’s my intention
You hold it, I loathe it
I will not listen, just like you now
Just like you now
Just like you now
Just like you…
I’m staring out a window screaming
Can anybody out there hear me?
I’m freeing my demons
Please just listen, I’m begging you now
Notes: I wanetd to experiment with something a little different. I won’t lie, the new Korn album definitely influenced me in that search for something different. Songs like “Throw Me Away” and “Tearjerker” just really got me thinking of what it would be like to do a really dark ballad. This is the end result. Anything in italics is actually sung loudly and harshly (not screamed, though) while the rest is sung in a more subdued, Aaron Lewis acoustic ballad sort of tone. On the emotional side of it, this is one of the few pieces I cried during. It’s honest. Maybe it’s not direct and at one point that everyone wants to see, but it’s very honest.
Hypocrites on Earth
06 years ago
by bangbang023
in lyrics
Hypocrites on Earth (11/13/2005)
You agonize over the way we pray
Sympathize with no one, no fucking way
But we are all one of God’s children
So at least we think you say
Let’s pull the curtain and reveal the truth
We are all created the same way
Save no one ’til you recognize their faith
Before we go so, god damn, we are insane
Pray
I won’t lie, I want you all to die
Pray
I don’t mind, now give me wings to fly
And save me from the…
Hypocrites on earth, the hyprocrites on earth
We are all the…
Hypocrites on earth, the hypocrites on earth
Leave me here while you go and bless yourself
The water scalds my forehead, anyway
So bend your knee and pray for all to see
The world is watching, make us all believe
Now lay your hands and bow down in gratitude
We worship one but you’re right in every way
The lines that split and divide our servitude
Save your parents before it’s too late
Pray
I won’t lie, I want you all to die
Pray
I don’t mind, now give me wings to fly
And save me from the…
Hypocrites on earth, the hyprocrites on earth
We are all the…
Hypocrites on earth, the hypocrites on earth
But what is it about me?
Why can’t you just agree?
Respect all our beliefs
We’re all on bended knee
We’re all on bended…
Pray
Pray
Pray
Pray
And save me from the…
Hypocrites on earth, the hyprocrites on earth
We are all the…
Hypocrites on earth, the hypocrites on earth
Bow down before me
Get down on your knees
Respect the world’s beliefs
Notes: I decided to experiment and go with a System of a Down/Old School Korn styling with this one. They verses are sung slowly and melodically, while the chorus starts interweaves fast screaming with slow melody (two single lines before hypocrites on earth). It’s something different from me and was pretty cool to write. About the meaning, it’s about the people who love God and cherish God and yet can’t find an understanding and respect for the beliefs of others. You’d be shocked as hell if you knew who inspired this one.
On Our Own
26 years ago
by bangbang023
in lyrics
On Our Own (10/26/2005)
I’m not as bad as you all may think
I’m not as wrong as I always seem
This is my only chance to hide
Behind the words of another fight
But, surely, even then
You can see how I treat my friends
Giving all that I have in me
Judgement comes as a tragedy
And yet I’ll be…
And yet I’ll be…
On my own
Why do you leave?
Why did you leave?
On my own
Simple words that I choose to speak
To portray my own self defeat
I try to tell you just how I feel
Maybe I’m just no big deal
Because every word I send
A vain attempt at a chance to mend
Pouring out what is left in me
Only words left defending me
And yet I’ll be…
And yet I’ll be…
On my own
Why do you leave?
Why did you leave?
On my own
I try to stand on my feet and prove I’m not weak
Every night
But it’s my own tragedy with which I must be
Every time
And yet I’ll be…
And yet I’ll be…
On my own
We’ll always be…
We’ll always be…
On our own
Notes: It’s just a very subdued ballad. Alyssa wanted me to write a song for her to sing, though I refused to do it. I guess, in some spiteful way, I wrote a song just for me, as personal as I can make it. It may not be good, but it’s heart felt.
Interlude of Nothing
06 years ago
by bangbang023
in lyrics
Interlude of Nothing (10/18/2005)
I’ve never had to scream
But can you hear me NOW!
Now!
Now!
My whispers echo and float around in my head
The things I’ve always thought, the things I’ve never said
So much of this damn hate that I have never bled
And now I meet with fate and watch where I am led
Did somebody look for me
When I could not be found?
Did somebody call for me
When I was not around?
Did you ever think
That I was fucking beaten down?
I never had my chance
But now I make my sound
Can you hear me…
I’ve always heard your words but can not comprehend
Mixed meaning interlude, the only song you send
I’m at the breaking point, I’ll scar before I mend
There is no other chance, now watch as I am cleansed
Did somebody look for me
When I could not be found?
Did somebody call for me
When I was not around?
Did you ever think
That I was fucking beaten down?
I never had my chance
But now I make my sound
Can you hear me NOW!
Sweet interlude that has lost all meaning
I will be
I will scream
Hear me now……
Did somebody look for me
When I could not be found?
Did somebody call for me
When I was not around?
Did you ever think
That I was fucking beaten down?
I’ve never had my chance
But can you hear me NOW!
NOW!
NOW!
Notes: The style is a mix of heavier Seether and older Staind. The meaning, itself, is about having a person feed you everything you want to hear, but without meaning or truth. I’m still struggling to write good song lyrics, ever, but I hope the message gets conveyed somewhat. I guess, in the end, what I’m trying to express is the feeling of someone saying they’re there for you and then wondering if they ever look for you when you aren’t doing everything to get their attention (if that makes any sense).
Today (Away Pt. II)
16 years ago
by bangbang023
in lyrics
Today (9/17/2005)
[verse 1]
Torn apart behind these eyes
I’ve lost it all and want to die
But you’re so god damn blind to me
You choose to fly, I choose to bleed
[pre-chorus]
I don’t wanna take it
I don’t wanna make it
I will never face it
Can’t forget, erase it
I don’t wanna take it
I don’t wanna make it
I can never face it
Please let me erase it
[chorus]
Cause I feel so enslaved
Hooked on the pain
I can’t be saved
Today
[verse 2]
Broken now, though it won’t show
The scars tell stories of the road
I’m shaking, craving what I need
Addictions take control of me
[pre-chorus]
I don’t wanna take it
I don’t wanna make it
I will never face it
Can’t forget, erase it
I don’t wanna take it
I don’t wanna make it
I can never face it
Please let me erase it
[chorus]
Cause I feel so enslaved
Hooked on the pain
I can’t be saved
Today
[bridge]
Try (x8)
Scars and hearts and broken dreams
Nothing feels as it all should seem
I fall apart wide at the seams
Away I’ll die, inside I’ll bleed
Scars and hearts and broken dreams
Nothing feels as it should seem
I fall apart wide at the seams
Waiting ’til I die and bleed
[chorus]
Cause I feel so enslaved
To the pain…
[pre-chorus]
I don’t wanna take it
I don’t wanna make it
I will never face it
Can’t forget, erase it
I don’t wanna take it
I don’t wanna make it
I can never face it
Please let me erase it
You could never take it
You could never make it
You will never face it
Unable to erase it
You will never take it
You will never make it
You could never face it
Unable to erase it
Nothing will save me now
Nothing will save me now
Nothing will save me now
Nothing will save me now
A-way!
A-way!
A-way!
A-way!
Guitar Music: Listen (Click to actually hear the music)
Notes: This song is a rewrite of my other song, “Away”. Basically, jtchange22 and his friend (Jared and Jeremy) came upon my lyrics and asked if they could use it as inspiration. I really didn’t think they would get something finished and done so quickly. When it was sent to me to listen to, I felt that I owed it to them to rewrite the lyrics to better fit the music. It’s hard work, harder than I ever expected. Existing music is so much less flexible and breakable than stuff I would usually just have in my head. It was an awesome challenge and these lyrics show that I need a lot of work with it. Just so you know, this song is not in the style of “Away”. The music carries punk undertones so it’s a little less dark than something like Staind or Seether would be. I should also mention that the music isn’t my general taste in music (no offense to the creators, we share different backgroudns), so it did affect my writing a bit. In the end, though, I’m never happy with my lyrics.