Today, after realizing the new position at work wasn’t going to materialize into a full time spot, I asked them to give me my old position back. It seems as though the change will happen, though nothing is set until it’s actually done.

Why the change back? The new job sucked. I was miserable. Don’t get me wrong, I loved having the weekend off to be with Melanie fully rested, but the complete lack of any kind of satisfaction from my work was maddening. Even in sales, I at least had the customer’s satisfaction to drive me. In this spot, all I have is a piece of paper with my research on it. It’s horrible.

The thing is, regardless of position, I don’t think I can stay at Best Buy any longer. There’s no room for me to move. I’ve been applying at banks, again, in an attempt to land something full time and without a glass ceiling. I hope something works out for me.

Honestly, to say I’m not scared would be a lie. I’m petrified. I should be so much further in my life than I actually am and it bothers me so much. I don’t have much, if any support, for this decision, but I have to do this. I need to find something for me. I need to find the answers that I don’t have.