I am not a fan of this happiness and blissfulness
The smiles on these faces, I’m growing fucking sick of this
Go and try to picture this: Me and all my hatred
Alone in the cold of a sea of nameless faces
And maybe I’m just tasteless, bitter and so jaded
The energy of darkness is bottled up, I saved it
Faking all the patience while I’m building up my energy
I tucked it safe away until I make another enemy
Holding it so steadily, this is my persona
I am filled with tons of love, but I’m also hatred’s owner
With my patience spilling over and pain flooding through my brain
When I’m left here all alone with no one to keep me sane
I guess I’m just the same when I’m left all to my lonely
Do I even have to say it? I think by now you know me
It just eats at me more slowly than the pace at which it used to
Maybe I’m just crazy when I’m facing down this issue
Cause I’m prone to say I miss you more than I should admit to
But she’s the one to keep me well when I only want to hit you
She’s the light to chase the shadows and erase away the blackness
But she isn’t here right now so instead I face this panic
And I’m shaking like an addict, I need to fucking fix this
I’ve always been so screwed up, the anxiety still itches
Cause everything is missing and everything is faded
While I sit and count the minutes, sitting and just waiting