Archive for September, 2008

Never Perfect

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

I will never be perfect, I will always have flaws
It doesn’t matter the reason, it doesn’t matter the cause
It’s just a matter of law that we all have our faults
We just need to improve through the lessons we’re taught
But I can get so distraught because I want some improvement
It might sound a bit crazy, it may sound a bit stupid
This need to be better for the sake of what’s precious
She knows what I’m saying, she knows whats my message
Cause I hold on to lessons and the pain that I went through
This point wasn’t easy, it was so hard to get to
And while complacency gets you some time for relaxing
It can also be painful and so god damn detracting
As the whole world is passing and leaving you stranded
I went through the trials so I just understand it
She deserves better, she deserves all my passion
So I won’t just sit back, but instead I’ll take action
I’ll be by her side, no matter what happens
I will give her a boost when she’s losing some traction
I will never be passive if it’s not what she needs
I will do it for her sake, not “a thank you” or “please”
Cause the man that you see will never be perfect
But I’ll strive to be better, for her sake, it’s worth it
When change has this purpose, it will always be right
One more lesson I carry as I sit here tonight

Joe and I Dancing

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

So, Melanie was a little bored and this is what comes out of it. Why am I the chick?

Seinfeld and Gates Microsoft commercials

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

So, Microsoft has brought on Jerry Seinfeld to star in a few commercials, along side Bill Gates, as they try to compete with the charming PC vs Mac advertisements that Apple has been running for a while, now. They are actually pretty damn good, especially the second one, in my opinion. What do you guys think?

Battling spam while saving your comments

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

It’s always a battle over here to try to combat spam while preserving legit comments from you boys and girls. For a while, I was using Defensio as an anti-spam plugin, though it was really paranoid and always wound up marking legitimate comments as spam and I grew tired of it.

For now, I’m back using Akismet. It’s less paranoid, though it tends to let more trackback spam in, so I’m also using Bad Behavior to try to help stop problems on that front.

With these changes, I hope to give myself less work while giving you guys more of an opportunity of seeing your comment appear right away instead of having it thrown into the “Awaiting Moderation” abyss.

It’s The Way

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

It’s The Way (9/9/2008)

It’s the way that you smile when I kiss your hand
It’s the way that we talk and how you understand
It’s the person I am and the man you have made me
And maybe it’s the way that you can drive me crazy
With that smile and that laugh and the kisses you share
It makes me write in cliches when I picture you there
If I could sit with you, stare, and take in every breath
I’d thank you forever from the heart in my chest
And I’d give from my depths, I would give you my best
Just give me your time, put this poor soul to rest
I can feel so distressed when I can not hold you
But, regardless of distance, recall what I told you
That this is a promise to be there forever
We’ll fight and we’ll laugh and we’ll do it together
I cherish and love you and love when you kiss me
I love when you hold me and love when you miss me
I love when you hit me and tell me I’m crazy
And, god, do I love it when you call me your baby
When everything’s hazy and blurry and wordless
You tell me you love me ’til I know it for certain
Cause it’s the way that you say it and the way that I feel
It’s the way that I know that this whole thing is real
It’s the way that you shine when those clouds flood the sky
It’s the way that I love you: heart, soul, body, and mind

Cloudy Thoughts

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

If I could clear out the knowledge and rest in the ignorance
The bliss of not knowing, the joy of the innocence
For just a few minutes this burden diminishes
Maybe then I could sit down and finally finish this
And get out the visions which reign over moments
With a poison that’s spiteful and ever so potent
When I sit down and focus on things that don’t matter
And shatter the present with thoughts that won’t stammer
They’re fluent and perfect and so fucking descriptive
I attempt to be strong and just be so dismissive
But these never listen, they stand their position
And weigh on a mind that just screams for division
And I want an escape and a clean separation
Hell, saw it all of if it means preservation
This sea’s elevation, a flood of emotion
Leaves me looking around for the valve I should open
To drain it all out and to purge it forever
To cut it all off and leave it perfectly severed
To leave it behind and resume this contentment
And ignore long ago and let go of resentment
Cause I want to vent this, I want to forget this
I only want now, the here and this sentence
I want to take lessons and forget all the facts
And I want to know that we will never go back
And that we’ll stay on these tracks, so happy together
The people we were simply lost in the never
As in never again, no more darkness and pain
Just a guy and his girl, a clear sky with no rain

Notes: It’s about knowing the past, the times before the happiness, and wishing you could forget all of it and not know the facts.

Happy Birthday, Melanie

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

Just a quick Happy Birthday to my beautiful girlfriend, Melanie. Happy Birthday, baby! I love you!

Birthday Wishlist

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

I figured I’d make everyone’s lives a little easier and just let you know what I’ve been looking at. As usual, only care about this if we’re actually close friends.

Yes, it’s all shirts. I need new clothes badly and, with the recent move, I don’t have much money for them, so I’m using my birthday to stock up for the winter. I love Fox clothing, by the way lol.

Slice of This

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3 years ago
by bangbang023 in

I can’t see past the weariness to the words that I am writing
I swear that I am trying, but fatigue can be so blinding
And in finding all the words and everything that I mean
I lose composure and my senses, lose my vision of the screen
But still I choose to scream even when it can’t be seen
I can let this smile gleam, but I can also let me bleed
Cause maybe it’s a dream and my head is on the pillow
Maybe this is blissfulness with roses, birds, and willows
I don’t know, I still don’t, it’s only what I’m feeling
Recollecting everything and hating what it’s stealing
Scraping at the ceiling cause this moment has been tainted
By the mental kind of pictures of the many things I’ve hated
Cause I waited here with patience and openly I stated
That everything I want is what seems to have been fated
I’ve stated that I love you and I mean it when I say it
I just hate a million memories, I wish that I could change it
The ones I never shared in, the ones I’ve had a taste of
The times I thought I lost it, the time I almost gave up
The moments you were hurting and the times that you still loved it
The memories of my own that I won’t release to public
But fuck it, I can’t dwindle, I can’t lose sight of present
The now is where we are and it’s my little slice of heaven
You’re my angel and my princess, excuse me and my weakness
When I can not have your kiss, well, I guess that I still need this

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