Unwanted Guest
Unwanted Guest (4/1/2008)
Why is it you won’t let me just enjoy this heart’s compassion?
Instead you retaliate by resurrecting what has happened
Cause every single action that you make me over analyze
Is a creation of frustration and I hate the way you fantasize
Looking through these damning eyes, expecting hurt and bleeding
Filling me with anguish when it’s peace that I am needing
I will never be conceding this and let you break these pieces
But, sometimes I feel so fucking weak beneath what is so ceaseless
Cause you paint the world as cheaters and hypocrites and leavers
These liars are the ones who feed on those they see as bleeders
And I’m the lone receiver of this torment that’s deserving
The agony you instigate can be so god damn unnerving
Stop it with your whining and just face the truth presented
When you look into the mirror, it’s you that is resented
I’m just purging out the agony by bleeding every vessel
To rid of you the happiness with which you wish to nestle
Cause I simply wish to settle in these dark and lonely places
Where everyone is dead to us, we’ll never see their faces
Where pain is simply traceless cause no one is there to give it
And these thoughts of contemplation are the only things to visit
And nobody hears your wishes and no one will give a fuck
When you’re lying in the corner with the darkness of a cut
Bask in the self disgust of the strength you always hoped for
In the times when you were stupid and you really didn’t know more
I won’t sit here and take this, I won’t let you destroy this
This love I hold for her is so precious, I enjoy this
I tried to just avoid this for years and I was empty
And that’s when you took control, that’s when you tried to tempt me
But now it’s hard to get me cause I’m stronger and much wiser
I’ll still screw up a million things, but I’ll never be a liar
And I’ll never be the person who you try to make me out to be
I’ll fight you til the very end, I’ll fight you when you shout at me
And when you throw your doubt at me, I’ll refuse to take it
My heart is fucking fragile but I refuse to let you break it
As much as I still hate this, the love is now my reason
It’s the warmth inside a crippled heart when everything is freezing
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