Xpression.v2

I feel like talking. Since no one is online that’s worth talking to, you guys get stuck with me. You can thank me later in the form of monetary compensation.

Life has been a roller coaster, lately. I met this girl (as should be quite evident by my poems), but, as always with me, it’s a complicated situation. I’m not sure many people would understand it and it’s one which is going to require a lot of time to make work. The funny thing is, though, I’m ok with that. Maybe it’ll fail miserably or maybe it’ll work amazingly well. However things end up, though, I’m glad I’m taking the risk. It’s hard to describe the feeling, but it makes me feel young again (I’m only 24, but shut up). When we’re young, we’d fight the world for what we feel is in our hearts. I’ve sort of lost that in recent years, but it’s back again. Maybe I’ll be labeled an outcast or perhaps people will understand it in some odd way, but I’m willing to face it, one step at a time. For now, though, I’m just going to focus on the present and on the two of us. Sometimes, a smile and a hug are worth all the stress they could inevitably bring along.

Work has been just as up and down. If you know me, you know that when I like a girl, I can be hit by it pretty badly, one way or another. We’ve had a few rough spots and this Wednesday morning, for instance, was one of them. Unfortunately, for me, I also had to work that morning. I wound up leaving early because I was just sick to my stomach. I rarely let anything ever affect me to the point where I can’t hide it, but some things just really really sting.

Anyways, work has been interesting even outside the scope of my personal feelings. My close friend, Anthony, was promoted to Supervisor of the department I work in. First of all, congratulations to him. It’s a weird adjustment, though. I went from working with him to working for him. I’m trying to make it as easy as possible for him, however, by trying to fall directly in line. He’s a respectful leader, so it’s not like I’m doing something I wouldn’t normally do, but I know that I need to help him out a bit as he tries to get the other guys to see him as more than an equal. It’s a tough spot to be in and, as a friend, I want to help as much as possible. In return, he’s looking to me to be his right hand man. Yep, looks like I’m finally going back to the status I had in Home Theater of being the go to guy.

All in all, life has been hectic. I’m trying to deal with my own problems while still being there to help others. Oddly enough, my horrible track record with relationships is coming to use now as I try to help out a few friends of mine, including Joe. I don’t get to help him much outside of the technology realm, so it’s kind of important for me to pool all my failure together and extract every lesson possible from it so I can share them with him. I’m also trying to help two other people with relationship problems. Funny, huh? The guy who hasn’t had any success with love in four years until right now is the one people are turning to. Either I’m doing something right with my advice or people are insane.

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