Blessed Strength (2/9/2008)

On this roller coaster, of sorts, there is only one constant
That I keep in my pocket to get through the nonsense
And honest to God, I could never just block this
I love it too much to be able to stop this
Cause when the fumes of these rockets fucking enter ignition
And the heat of the flames makes its way through my system
It’s a wave of nutrition and I can take every symptom
As long as the high lasts and strengthens my vision
In the heat of division and in this moment of battle
When the world falls arounds me, but I feel so unrattled
I’d be willing to travel so you can see my eyes tattle
Exposing my hatred for your waste and your prattle
Cause I don’t need any paddle to fucking fight every current
When I discover the truths that will never be, weren’t
This elixir, I stir it, and then I drink like a glutton
Turning nothing to something at just the push of a button
When I’m feeling disgusted and broken and lied to
I control the exhaust only because that I like you
Cause if I were to fight you, I would lose what I’ve needed
And I’d be fucking foolish to lie down and concede it
So, time out, chance for breathing, let’s get back to the center
I’ll use the strength from the anger to make everything better
I only control this because I know that you’re worth it
This anger’s a blessing when it can hold such a purpose

Notes: I’m talking about how strengthening the anger can feel, but how I also know I need to control my temper and channel that energy towards something positive.