Thanks to my mom

For those of you who know me, I think I can handle it all. A situation has arisen lately and it’s spun out of control very very quickly. For the first time in a long time, I felt like I didn’t know what to do. Maybe it’s a bit lame or maybe it’s way overdue, [...]

Following the Love

Following the Love (2/24/2008)
I don’t have a beat and I haven’t planned these lines
Cause, man, I’m really fine and I’m so relaxed inside
If it’s only for this time and if only for a minute
My entire past is finished and the pain is diminished
And you can witness me walk without carrying burdens
I’m free from the hurting [...]

I just want to talk

I feel like talking. Since no one is online that’s worth talking to, you guys get stuck with me. You can thank me later in the form of monetary compensation.
Life has been a roller coaster, lately. I met this girl (as should be quite evident by my poems), but, as always with me, it’s [...]

Beyond The Cover

Beyond The Cover (2/22/2008)
Can you see past the cover and through the eyes
To a point where you find the truth inside
There’s no use in lies in these situations
But patience is thinned by these accusations
Your judgment is taken without much purpose
And you’re certain of what’s behind these curtains
Your dreams and curses and thoughts of doubt
Born without [...]

Quietly Aflame

Quietly Aflame (2/20/2008)
The words you don’t speak can tear through my soul
They quickly take control until they tear a hole
I can bear through the cold, but not unspoken silence
The mind wanders to places of heart break and violence
You can find this in my chest, behind the rivers that flow
Behind the crimsons of love and the [...]

Expectations

Expectations (2/18/2008)
I’m in this situation and I don’t know what I’m doing
I wear a mask of confidence, but I don’t find it soothing
It’s moving to hear her voice and then I see her picture
The image, like a fixture, every time I feel I miss her
But as the scripture of my life, there’s chaos in this [...]

Pressure Fuse

Pressure Fuse (2/15/2008)
It’s time to put my foot down and stand tall when I look down
To see your fucking faces, I wonder what you took now
I’m feeling so much pressure to be some fucking new clown
I know it’s such a new sound to have someone turn you down
But I’ll sit by while you drown, there’s [...]

Staind “Mudshovel” Video

I can’t believe I have never posted this video on the site before. It’s one of my favorite songs and describes how I’m feeling this afternoon pretty well.

Your Omissions

Your Omissions (2/11/2008)
I’ve been trying to write this with the perfect words
To express the confusion and the smiles and hurt
But to observe and understand this, you need to feel it
I’d reveal it, but honestly, I’d much rather conceal it
Cause this feeling that I hold would have to be caution
I’ve been through it all and I’ve [...]

Blessed Strength

Blessed Strength (2/9/2008)
On this roller coaster, of sorts, there is only one constant
That I keep in my pocket to get through the nonsense
And honest to God, I could never just block this
I love it too much to be able to stop this
Cause when the fumes of these rockets fucking enter ignition
And the heat of the [...]