If you bother to read my poems, you’ll notice there’s a love interest in my life. To be honest, it was really something unexpected and the situation is, as always, very complicated, but I’m trying my best to make it work out. I’m not always sure how she feels, though I know my feelings are reciprocated, at least somewhat, and it does feel kind of nice.

In the short time we’ve known each other, she’s already taught me how to be more optimistic. Yes, me, of all people is trying to see the glass half full, for once. It’s a bit of a struggle, at times, but it’s worth it and a nice change of pace. I only hope that I can positively impact her life in the same way she has mine because she really is a great person and good people deserve better. It sounds a bit cliche, but, oh well.

The one thing really making this tough is the damn winter weather. Here in New York, it’s gets brutally cold and it tends to make people very lethargic. Plus, how much can you do if you can’t be outside? Movies, dinner, and what else? I’m not exactly a creative guy, but I want to do things like walks on the beach, a trip to the botanical garden, and maybe even a trip to Yankee stadium, but you need warm fucking weather for that. I don’t know why I felt like cursing there, but I did, so I did.

Other than that, I’m just trying to take things in stride. I’m a guy who hates not knowing what’s going to happen and it’s really sabotaged me, in the past. I’m trying to remain in the moment, for now, and just enjoy the time I do get to spend with her. It’s been almost three weeks since we hung out, though, and we probably won’t be able to hang out until next week, sometime. God, the wait sucks.

That’s about it, for now. Thanks to Priscilla for giving me some time when I’ve let stupid things get to me and needed to get away from it for a bit. Much appreciated.