Battered Again
Battered Again (1/14/2008)
The fire turns to apathy before the flame ignites again
It’s taking every ounce of strength to stifle every fight, my friend
I know I wasn’t right again, but is this fucking worth it?
I feel the rage inside again, I fucking hate the purpose
Cause I’m certain that I’ve tried my best, I swear it with a passion
What else do you need from me and what is this attraction?
Mine isn’t superficial, mine is rooted in compassion
I swear I fucking care for you, so tell me what has happened
Cause your actions fucking tear me up, screaming, shaking, cursing
I only want you next to me, I could never think you’d verse me
But every time you hurt me and throw me to the side again
The bruises hurt a little more, a scar inside the mind again
And I think I’m gonna die again, well, maybe less dramatic
I’m fading from the world again, my voice replaced by static
The guy who never had it, I’ve kept coming back for more again
I think you’re fucking worth it, but I feel like such a whore again
Cause you’re closing every door again, leaving me here freezing
I told you I would always stay, but you’re the one who’s leaving
I know this life is crazy and I know how bad it hurts
But I really think without you, this life would only get much worse
So pardon every curse, well, I hope you understand it
I’ll gladly take the beatings for as long as I can stand it
I never want to hurt you, so I just don’t comprehend it
Why is it that you hurt me? What can I do to end it?
What can I do to mend it and smother hate for once again?
Where can I go to find you and hold you in the sun again?
I want to be the one again, I’ll do it battered, broken
I’ll take the god damn beating and I’ll drink the magic potion
Notes: It’s a battle to balance the corrosive anger and frustration while trying to remain determined to make things work. Sadly, I know it’s all worth it, so I’ll keep coming back for more.
Filed under: Poems