When I Hear It
When I Hear It (1/10/2007)
I put up with a lot and I gladly carry the burden
Though it’s burning my nerves, making me feel so uncertain
So, please close the curtain and let me deal with my hurting
Cause I’m a flawed individual, with disaster I’m flirting
It doesn’t matter, I’m swerving, while my stomach is churning
My inside’s in knots again and it feels so unnerving
And I’m labeled deserving by the guy in the mirror
And it couldn’t be clearer as I lean a bit nearer
That I love her and fear her, but I want to get near her
The strength in her eyes and the warmth when I hear her
I want to guide her and steer her to her personal bliss
I had the nerves for a kiss and then I learned what I missed
It’s so absurd to admit, but she let it flood back again
Warmth to a heart that got it back on the track again
A beat in my chest and a reason to crack again
Break open the shell until every nerve snaps again
It’s great to be back again, but there’s a catch to this feeling
Because the smile and warmth, the very act of revealing
Can be a hazard to self if you’re hacking and stealing
It’s paranoia to some, but it’s a crack in my ceiling
And it’s the path I’m concealing and the road that I’m hiding
I will figure this out and then expose why I’m smiling
Because this note that I’m writing, the very essence and spirit
Is the strength that’s received from your voice when I hear it
Notes: This was supposed to be a frustrated poem, but it turned out really different, obviously. I think it’s pretty easy to see it turn after a few lines as my new found optimism kicked in. It’s one day. One moment. It’ll be ok. On a side note, rhyming wise, this is one of my best in a while.
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