Not Hard To Forget
Not Hard To Forget (1/7/2008)
The more that I think, the more that it eats me
The way, that all day, you thought you could treat me
I’m trying my best and I’m trying in earnest
To make you forget, to make you feel hurtless
Is that even a word? Fuck, this one can slide
I’ve got too many thoughts to deal with inside
I’m not talking from pride, but from this disappointment
When every thing said gets ignored and disjointed
And it’s so damn annoying, as it pounds in my chest
This isn’t so easy, but I’m giving my best
If this is a test, I’ll use heart and not head
But the brain is on fire as I take in this breath
Now, the air cools my lungs, it’s not hard to forget
That I need to be strong because this is my mess
I’ll give you my best, so please excuse weakness
A moment of doubt and I know you don’t need this
But I’m searching for pieces, I’m clawing for something
I’m looking around, but the floor’s good for nothing
My words are not helping, I’m letting you down
I hate that I fail when I feel this heart pound
But the truth must resound that I’m trying my hardest
To keep my composure and pureness in target
My instincts say fight, but the heart says protect
And it hurts I’m not close cause I’m so far instead
But, the scars will all mend, I swear it, I promise
There’s strength in your beauty, I’m just being honest
One day I’ll help, I will be there one day
I just pray to the sky that I won’t be too late
Notes: Thrown together quickly, just to vent some steam and remind myself that I need to stay strong and determined. It’s not the best piece ever, but I’m ok with it.
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