Remain Impartial Until What Point?
I’m going to leave out details here. The general idea is the actual point, anyways.
So, this morning I was put into a situation which I really didn’t walk away from feeling all that great. Someone I know came to me with a problem and this problem involved me, among other things. Now, I know what I want from this person and parts of me know it would have been a great opportunity to manipulate the situation to my favor. I didn’t. I basically threw myself under a bus just to be impartial because I actually care.
Some may say this is a good attribute, but it feels so shitty. Not too long ago, I would have done right by me, but here I am, possibly sacrificing something important to me just to give this person the right advice. What kills me even more is that I really do want to fight for what I want, so what should I do? Do I lie and manipulate someone I care about? I can’t. I care too much and I want them to be happy. What happens to me, though? Do the nice guys always finish last?
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