Xpression.v2

Fighting The Trend (12/29/2007)

I know that I’ll get through this eventually
But I’m just not sure it’ll be done successfully
Because stuff gets to me when I know that it shouldn’t
It always plays the same though I said that it wouldn’t
And this is where I lock up and forget what to say
I just go over the facts and then watch them decay
This mind is a stage for my anger and hate
With jealousy in the spotlight in these recent few days
I know I need it soon: change. I just need to relax a bit
And say thanks for what I have and then simply fall back to it
There’s really a knack to it, the way I constantly fuck up
But I need to stay strong and let this jealousy shut up
Cause anything that’s been dug up just doesn’t belong here
I need to bury it again and stay vibrant and strong here
This situation is complicated, but I want to face it
For that moment in the rain, oh god I can taste it
So, I need to stay patient and remember the details
I was the one there, there’s no reason that we’ll fail
Optimism is difficult, though I will fight to embrace it
Because that feeling was pure, this respite makes me patient
Though my mind tries to hate it, this heart keeps on beating
And so long as it does, I won’t be crying or leaving
In a world where my feelings can be harsh and deceiving
You give me truth and a smile and a fuel for believing
And now I feel it all leaving, the doubt and the envy
I will fight for what I want, my own fairy tale ending
Wounds keep on mending and one day I will beat this
And then look into your eyes and realize that I need this

Notes: It’s a little rough around the edges, but I just woke up, so that’s to be expected. It’s about constantly trying to remind myself that I have to fight through my issues to get what I want. I can’t give up.

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