Xpression.v2

Disappointed Addict (9/19/2007)

I take a deep breath as I search for patience
Complications arise and I need this hesitation
A simple meditation as I try to face this
It’s hard to stay this way, help me, I hate this
So many faces spin webs of words I always put my faith in
Yet nothing ever happens, another night I stay in
Locked in my haven, this world I’m harshly tucked away in
The place I fall apart in, the room that I decay in
The bed that I still lay in, the air I always breathe in
I try to break away but I’m not allowed to leave it
Words said, but never kept, I still don’t know the reason
I believe them, the people I can always find deceit in
I have a secret, though, that’s tucked behind the smile
Kept like a file behind a door with a combination dial
I’m like a child with a pain but no words to express it
The quiet’s all I have, but it seems that you accept it
But it’s hard to keep in check with the stinging from the chest hit
You took the air right out of me, perhaps it’s me who’s reckless
Cause the lies I try to guess with will always lead to messes
Disappointment is the dream that I tend to go to bed with
But the hope you flood my head with is so god damn addictive
I’m not a victim, you’re the pill I love to scratch my itch with
It’s a shame I always listen every time you say I’ll see you
The addict’s who I am, but the dealer role would be you

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