The Most Unclear Feelings
The Most Unclear Feelings (9/8/2007)
I really try my hardest, but it’s difficult to say this
I wonder if you’ll read this. Heck, I wonder if you’ll hate this
But if you go and take this, please know I’m being honest
The jokes are on the side, this is me, I swear and promise
Cause I know I’ve breached the topic, though really unconvincingly
There really is no history, but everything’s convincing me
That waiting here invisibly just isn’t gonna cut it
I really hate to do it but it’s best that we discuss it
You are the only subject, the reason for these words here
I’ll make sure I don’t curse here, I feel it my nerves dear
I want to make this verse clear, but I’m dancing all around it
I think we’ve had enough, let me write this and resound it
I want to be much better for the sake of your aquaintance
I want to say I feel for you while fighting with impatience
In times of desparation, I discuss things in my own head
It may seem kind of crazy, but it’s safer in this home stead
But every where I don’t tread, is exactly where you’re standing
Because of you I’m tired of this schizo understanding
Can you understand me? Do you get what I’m not saying?
No, I didn’t think so, it’s time to stop the playing
I really truly like you, enough to watch my word use
I crack a stupid smile when you’re close and I have heard you
Every single word’s true that sits behind that smile
The beauty of your essence leaves me nervous like a child
And the way you live with style, I seek my own improvement
Now I’m optimistic and I know that I can do this
Well, it’s a little more difficult than exactly how I’m writing
But a picture there of you will keep me right and trying
Cause I’d really just be lying if I said I didn’t think of you
You dance around my mind ’til I can’t help but think it’s true
It’s just that every thing of you, every single aspect
Makes me feel a flutter for the taste I haven’t had yet
If none of this makes much sense, I really must apologize
I don’t know what to say, though I’m carrying a lot inside
Deep behind an honest mind, lies a heart that’s true
A beat inside a spirit that breathes because of you
And it’s gleams because of you, damn I feel so awakened
I wish that I could say this, I wish that you could take it
I wish that I could taste it and kiss you in this moment
I wish that I could say that my words are heard and potent
Notes: It’s a rambling mess, I know. I couldn’t get someone out of my mind so I just decided to write until I felt less consumed by it.
Filed under: Poems