Imperfect Romance (9/2/2007)

I had no sleep last night and I’m so exhausted
A stray dream it would seem is all I wanted
I almost lost it over a dumb presumption
That’s really just the safe word for assumption
I made an ass out of you and, well, mostly me
I inferred these things from my own history
It makes me sick to see that I’m trigger happy
Next time, to get right, just come and slap me
Cause I let it trap me and I ran to the notepad
I was pissed and stupid and pathetically so mad
Man am I so glad that you took the first step
And we worked it out even if it don’t work yet
Cause I haven’t learned yet what it means to trust you
In a world where there’s people that will always fuck you
But I have the guts to if you give me a chance now
Just come for the ride, I’m extending my hand out

From right where I stand now, I can only dream
I’m too tired to think, but it’s fine with me
I’d die to see you just smile for me
When I close my eyes, it’s what I try to see
And I strive to be just exactly what I am
But a little stronger and happy where I stand
If you would take my hand, I’d be near perfect
Though, let’s be honest, just a little nervous
But the fear is worth it, I’d love to face it
The way you smile, I pray to taste it
I’m oft-mistaken, but I’ll still keep trying
Your starry eyes will keep me flying

Notes: This “love” (seriously, just call it mushy stuff since this ain’t about love) poem is sort of like me: Full of good intentions, but rough around the edges and, sometimes, saying things the wrong way. I guess she just makes me feel stupid in all the right ways lol. That’s my excuse, at least, cause I’m only this spastic around her.