Here Again (8/31/2007)

You told me this shouldn’t be the only way I say things
I need to open up and stop caring bout what they think
You were going to listen ever since our great discussion
But why am I now sitting here pissed off and disgusted?

I’ve waited for two hours, but you never called, no nothing
You flaked out on our plans again, you’ll have a cause or something
But now I’m fucking fussing and I want to let this out again
I was so fucking stupid to let down all my doubt again
So now I get to shout again and punch whatever’s near me
I’ll break my fucking knuckles til these very walls are fearing me
Cause now it’s all so clear to me. No, I’m drowning in confusion
A drink or two to drown the pain is not the proud solution
God, I want some retribution, but god I fucking like her
I really want to kiss her, but I really want to fight with her
Every other night with her is one more fucking let down
I’m typing at this keyboard like I’m gonna burn this desk down
I feel it in my chest now, everything is clenched right up
And every nerve’s on fire, I hate her cause she messed life up
Every day I get right up to be put back in my place again
You never say a word to me, but it’s right back in my face again
Now, I’m standing on this stage again, nothing’s making sense again
Anger and depression and I’m sitting on this fence again
Why is it you don’t like me? Fuck, why is that you hate me?
Why the fuck am I left bare again just sitting here and waiting?
There’s nothing left for taking, I’ve given all I have now
I don’t care if it’s enough, I don’t care if I still have doubt
I want to fucking hate you and forget every god damn feeling
I want to take back everything that I’ve watched you stealing
I want to leave you reeling, I want to leave impressions
I just really want to tell you that you’ve always been so precious
I hate this fucking rhyme cause I loathe this whole expression
Don’t even try to read this, just listen to my message