Rambling On About You
Rambling On About You (8/26/2007)
I’m going to take a moment to put the jokes on the side
I’m sitting here thinking with these tears in my eyes
My pride’s on the side and I’m out of my mind
Let me speak from my heart, whether for wrong or for right
Cause I hide my whole life behind this lone disguise
I strike up these fights so that I feel alright
I guess I’m the kind of guy who relies on control
I hate what I don’t know and that hate digs a hole
And it can take away the soul and leave me here shaken
Obsessing over the little things that you’ve taken
But I’m so mistaken, I forget what you’ve given me
Those times that I wish that you could have been with me
Standing by my side, understanding what I hide
Two people together there staring into the light
Living a life that is filled with uncertainty
Making mistakes with you, seeing you learn with me
Facing this nervously, but having you there beside me
Giving me a strength that was never inside of me
And everything that I try to be is all that I can be
Courageous and strong, well, do you understand me?
I know that you can’t see everything I am thinking
It’s hard to read my eyes while I’m nervously blinking
It’s a stupid reaction to the fact that I feel this
If you would call me right now, I’d go and reveal this
There’s something about you, it’s your obvious ways
The chaos you give me, while I feel I’m okay
I want you stay so that I could just say this
But you hung up and left me so I guess I can save it
And I’ll be scared when I face it, I’ll fear the whole moment
It’s something I can’t predict, I can’t reason and know it
But facing my fear for you is something that’s worth it
Though, regardless of the time, I’ll be anxious and nervous
Notes: Just had one of those moments where I lost it a bit. In this one, I address my fear of not knowing how things will end up and being scared to make a move simply because I can’t predict the outcome. The title? Well, I guess after writing the whole piece (which is a bit rough in terms of syllabolic patterns), I realize I was rambling on about one person in particular.
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