Xpression.v2

Overcomplicated Weakness (8/18/2007)

I have a million talking heads pointed at my ears
Addressing their conversation towards insanity and fears
While there’s no misguided jeers, there’s a lot of fucking pressure
To do well and be free and just listen to their lectures
They measure me, I’m measured, now here comes the lesson
I thought that if I listened, the stress I feel would lessen
But that wasn’t the message, did I tune you out too soon?
I forgot that I should mention my attention has no room
Now, discretion’s gone kaboom and everything has blown up
I’m back down on the floor when I really should have grown up
All the words I wrote up, now they’re back down on the page
And suddenly they lack the truth and sound of yesterday
Cause I found a place to play, come inside my head now
Don’t wander in too far kids or you’ll never ever get out
It’s a dark maze in a heart glazed by stupid fucking questions
Some of them are self served while the others are suggestions

Do I have all your attention? I’ve written out a speech
I’d love to read it back for you, just sit down in a seat
Let me just precede it by saying I’m imperfect
I’m working on the changes and believe that it’s all worth it
Now, I’m a little nervous, so excuse me if I stutter
Here I go for nothing, there’s no reason, rhyme, or other
I’ve recently discovered I’m obsessed with minor details
A text or call ignored is a way to say that “he failed”
The way she spoke in letter is the hand of mine that she nailed
Closing off the coffin is the only way to prevail
Hope is not my strong point, so how about some help now?
How about a simple smile that can help me get what’s felt out?
Cause once I get the swells out and settle in my center
I’ll be the first thank the lord for every day he sent her
It’s difficult to mess up with the simplest of deeds
Unless your name is Chris, the victim of weak knees

Notes: I tend to obsess over things that really don’t mean nothing. A unanswered text or two and I spin into chaos. That’s something I need to fix.

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