Xpression.v2

Turning Point (8/16/2007)

Who would have figured I’d be making this U-turn?
Unzip the lips and forget that the truth burns
Letting the proof churn had made me neurotic
I got it, I’ll try to pace it and watch it
But there’s a problem, people tend to be sensitive
They ask me to stay calm and beg me to censor it
I can’t get a sentence in, already you’re leaving
I guess if you don’t hear it, well, whatever the reason
I’m sick of the silence and eating the agony
I’d rather just say it and then let you be mad at me
It’s not what it has to be, but the choice has been made
I’m a guy with a temper and a little boy in the same

I was going insane until I finally lost it
Threw my keys on the dresser, my wallet, I tossed it
I clenched my fist up and took a kiss at the wall
I was confused and depressed, but pissed most of all
Cause the shit in these walls was making me distant
I had a world full of thoughts, but nobody to listen
Sitting there twitching, my mind’s always racing
Was I going crazy mumbling while I’m pacing?
The world felt so hazy, so I turned to my history
I chose her for a reason but that’s really a mystery
The words that she laid out, I most needed to hear
Like a jolt in the brain coming in the from both ears

Now everything is so clear, let’s turn up soundtrack
When the world comes to punch, I need to just pound back
Making the sound that will express what I’m thinking
Whether it’s down packed or I’m drowning and sinking
Cause once I had found that, I changed my position
I was falling behind but now I lead with conviction
This addiction should only act as a supplement
To the things that I say in peace and in suffrage
And I think I’m in love with it, though I’m slowly learning
Progress at any speed is simply better than hurting
I’ll fall on my face and probably fail a few times
But to live is to risk it, so let me say these few lines

Notes: Pretty straight forward piece. The last line refers to what I plan to say to someone the next time I get to spend some time with her. The line before that prefaces it all with my new found courage and my long lasting pessimism lol.

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