Talking to Myself
Talking to Myself (8/14/2007)
Look at you standing there, weak and pathetic
You see what you want but believe you won’t get it
At least you have said it and just can admit it
Go sit your ass down and forget it and quit it
Cause nothing can fix it, no one can make you
It’s every damn thought that you let fucking break you
You let this life take you and throw you around
A little wind blows and you go to the ground
You froze like a clown, you settled for distance
She’s standing right there, what’s with your resistance?
This pathetic insistance on being so nervous
Has led me to write and scream out these verses
And ream out with curses that bite and betray you
No one will help you and no one will save you
You’re all on own and it’s freaking you out
You’re too stupid and weak to see through the doubt
I can’t fucking help it, I just want to hit me
I can’t seem to find the courage within me
I’ve done this before, right in this position
And managed to fight away all these symptoms
But look at that smile, look at that sparkle
My legs aren’t moving, I’m shaking my heart full
I’m letting it get me and ruin the moment
Exactly the way I knew you’d be told it
I’m standing here frozen, I wish I could kiss her
But all that I’ve done has allowed me to miss her
And now I’m just pissed off, alone and retarded
I talk to myself cause I know what I started
Notes: Seriously, at this rate, I’m fucking it up royally. I’m really pissed at myself right now.
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