One of Two
One of Two (5/6/2007)
I’d really like to know why this got so complicated
How did something so good turn to something that I hated?
Was there anger in your eyes when I said what I debated?
There’s way too many questions and I wish I could erase it
Cause I could never face it, the facts of what has changed us
It wasn’t worth the risk, I wonder if it pains us
Or am I left alone with these questions in my mind?
Am I the only one of two who deals with this inside?
But when things go wrong, they always seem to crumble
The fall is never short, I guess I always stumble
I fumbled every word and I fought to keep it simple
But it wasn’t only me, I had let you in the middle
And quietly we stood, both knowing what would happen
Every thing collapsed in the fault of my attraction
The memories grew cold and eventually we drifted
This isn’t what I planned and this isn’t what I pictured
I wish that I could fix it, but I can only be so hollow
Eventually there’s something and it’s more than I swallow
We can trace it back and follow and look for every sign
But nothing past could change what eats at me inside
At least it’s me this time, I guess that makes it better
I think it always is, we’ll pretend it both together
Every word we said now leaves me feeling severed
Untying at the seams that had once kept me together
I just want to make it better without sacrificing dreams
It seems so damn impossible to figure what I mean
Every word means something, but it means nothing to you
I find it hard to be the one, the only one of two
But I guess that’s what I chose back then, there’s nothing I can do
I find it hard to be the one, the only one of two
Notes: It’s a little rough around the edges, as usual. It’s a slightly different rhythm than I usually go with.
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