Xpression.v2

Allow This (3/6/2007)

This letter is being used to clear my emotions
I hold them, but I drown in the waves and harsh motions
This notion of me meaning more to you
Is foolish, the beating, I’m feeling sore for you
I mean, it’s sort of true that I never really tried much
After the times you left, I was feeling pride struck
I never really tried luck, I thought that I could earn it
Now I’m sitting here, just wishing I could burn it
I’d toss it in the furnace or go light up the matches
Watching every doubt fade like I was doing magic
Just like it had happened with a certain ex of mine
But that’s another story, it’s another place and time
Now, in my present mind, I don’t think I can grasp it
You push and then you pull and you execute your tactics
Nothing ever happens except for broken imagery
Faint hallucinations that you would come and sit with me
And change up every history and keep your empty promise
All I ever asked for was for you to be damn honest
But every empty promise had a hidden meaning
It meant that you were lying, deceiving by misleading
And now I sit repeating, speaking in monotony
I think I should admit it, I lose because you got to me
But tragically and shockingly, I can’t give up the memory
I’ll hold on to the hopes and repeat what you have said to me
And I know it seems so stupid and maybe even useless
But every god damn man needs a simple dream for fullness
So, while nothing ever happens and I hate you for the bullshit
I’ll be waiting still right here, allowing you to pull this

Notes: This one is about Maria. I know, I know, you’re probably asking yourself when I’ll grow a set and move on, but…..I’m too tired to even explain.

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