Archive for February, 2007

Our Nothing

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4 years ago
by bangbang023 in

Our Nothing (2/12/2007)

I’m stuck in this room cause of a sip of the venom
Every second crawls by and it drills in the lesson
How every momentary session of open wide exuberance
Has a price to pay, but I didn’t have a clue to this
Cause maybe I am new to this, I never really hear it
But these tonal qualities leave reeling back, I fear it
Now I’m jotting down these lyrics so maybe I can sleep soon
Clear my head of the confusion that you suddenly let seep through
But everytime I meet you, I wind up going round full circle
Til I’m battered and I’m beaten and I’m colored black and purple
It’s not like I mean to hurt you, but the words between the lines
None of it exists now please stop digging through my mind
Cause every thing is fine, but I have these simple expectations
I like drawing out a line to avoid the aggravations
Eliminate the allegations that lead me to aggitation
Searching for the words to realign the allocation
To organize my feelings and not mix them in the moment
But you put them in a blender, now everything is hopeless
How can you not take notice that I’m looking for my exit
Throw down a few more lines and hope somebody else will get it
Cause I’m simple, not obsessive, though maybe I’m pathetic
It doesn’t mean I’m desperate to cross the line, forget it
But before I sound aggressive, understand my lone intention
To clarify the situation and avoid a dark retention
A cowardly confession done in the interest of protection
A moment on it’s own caused by a little indisgression
Nothing near perfection, but perfect in it’s own right
A nothing for the nobodies, a cold and never known night

Moment of Relief

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5 years ago
by bangbang023 in

Moment of Relief (2/9/07)

I know I’m far from perfect and I live without a purpose
Sometimes all the drama can run rings around a circus
But I know for certain that my life is swinging sky high
I’m almost over the issues that clouded up my mind’s eye
Working at a job now where I seem to find contentment
It tends to be a change of pace from living with resentment
When every other sentence was full of more uncertainty
Or complaints about the world and all of it’s absurdity
And I say it now so nervously, but I think I found direction
I put emotion on the side and only focus on perfection
The feelings and the fire will have to come another time
Right now I need to calculate and come up with another rhyme
A lightning and a thunder line, something with conveyance
To take what I’ve been thinking of, with eloquance, portray it
So I can light it up and save it and pray for understanding
This has been the tool that has softened every landing
Getting me to places where I know the words to speak with
And clearing up my thoughts, giving strength instead of weakness
Guiding me to now, to this time when I feel alright
A moment of contentment before I hit another wall, right?
Cause I know it’s far from over, there is more around the corner
A lifetime of embattlement where words are soul and water
Quenching every thirst and lifting me back to my feet
In this moment that I’m alright, in this moment of relief

So Damn Distracted

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5 years ago
by bangbang023 in

…by the beauty that is Windows Vista.

Yes, sadly, the reason I haven’t posted in a while is because I’ve spent way too much time playing around with Windows Vista, but, you can relax now, because I’m back. I know people need regular doses of my cynicism to get through the week.

So besides spending my times trying to get everything working in Vista and then following that up with curses aimed at some companies with either no or simply crappy Vista support (I’m looking at you Creative and nVidia), I’ve been getting myself acclimated to working in Merch. So far, it’s been a blast. I actually enjoy my job. Don’t get me wrong, I’m probably working more than I did in Home Theater since there’s no down time, but that’s what I love about it. Time goes by so much more quickly. On top of that, I work side by side with people I’m cool with (it’s not often you are crying from laughing so hard while working), so it’s always a pleasure. Oh, and not being the guy that has to do everything also helps quite a bit. It’s a break, to say the least. Now, I just need to get my weekly hours back up to what they were. I’ve gone from 35 – 40 hours a week to a disgusting 15 – 20. I can’t live on that. One step at a time, I guess.

Nothing else to really talk about at the moment, but I’ll be posting more regularly again. Thanks for tuning in peeps.

Finally Official

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5 years ago
by bangbang023 in

Well, after a long period of waiting, the news is official: Starting next week, I am out of Home Theater and a part of the Merchandising crew. It was a little nerve wracking as news broke that the labor budget in Merch was sliced and they had no room for another man, but people got together and wound up sourcing my hours from Home Theater’s budget even though I’ll be part of Merch.

It’s going to be a big change for me. I have to admit, I’m a bit nervous, but in a good way. I’ve spent the past three years doing the same exact thing. Not only am I extremely tired of the customers, I’m simply bored with my job. Going to Merch is going to provide all new challenges that I’m actually looking forward to all while working with people I’m very cool with. It’s also going to feel weird not being the go to guy (this kid Anthony is), but I’m hoping to learn quickly. Somewhere in my mind, I made it a goal to make a difference, you know what I mean? I don’t want to just be a part of a team. I’ve spent over a year now being more than that in Home Theater and it’s a nice feeling, so I want to re-establish that feeling in Merch. I know I can meet the minimum expectations, but I’m hoping to far exceed them. I feel this will not only give me a break from a job I hate that I so desperately need, but also give me a possible alternative route to furthering my career level at Best Buy. Wish me luck.

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