Xpression.v2

Crowd Shooting (10/28/2006)

They tell me that anger’s no good for my spirit
I’m deaf and unconscious, fuck you I won’t hear it
Cause I need this enragement of these situations
To push me ahead against all your persuasions
It’s my motivation, my one branch to hold on
When I’m over the edge, but it’s best that I go on
Pulse pounding, control’s gone and I’ve hit the ceiling
Shaking in hatred, my patience is wielding
It’s over, it’s toppled, confinement has broken
Fury that reigns, it’s so openly spoken
Your silence is golden while I flip through the pages
To find that one word that defines my enragement
Cause, face it, I’m wasted, I’ve one of disgraces
I’ve torn shit apart and ripped right through your patience
So much has been taken, a pain that’s not weightless
It pounds on my shoulders while I sit in complacence
But I fucking hate this, I can’t sit here and take this
The nothing around me that blurs out their faces
And fogs out the targets of my own indisgression
I can’t see a thing, but I know imperfection
And I know this direction is not what I’ve needed
This calm soothing bullshit leaves me feeling cheated
I know that I’ve screwed up my life until right now
But give me some time and I’ll nail every line down
And then when I lie down, I’ll do so in pleasure
Knowing that I made my own through the weather
So let me get damn angry, let me feel the frustration
That way I can change my whole situation

Notes: I’ve spent all week trying to control my anger and it finally got to me. This is one of those rhymes that just came pouring out of me. It’s me just recalling why I somewhat enjoy the anger and then explaining why I need it. I need to be angry with how my life is if I want to change it. People want me to be calm and mellow, but that leads to complacency and nothing gets done then.

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