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My Own Love Poem (9/24/2006)

In the silence in the morning, I collect my straying thoughts
And I dedicate a moment to what I have never lost
I scramble through the pictures that I’ve locked inside my mind
The catastrophic romance that would turn my hatred blind
Then I say that I’ll be fine as my feet, they touch the floor
And lead me to a world to which I have locked the door
But I’m so blocked and sore and these emotions are atrophic
And the barriers I build, it’s a process, I can’t stop it
So I sit and try to mock it, but my chest is slowly caving
The weight is growing larger and my obstinance is waning
I am growing sick of waiting for my life to fall in place
While I dream of every circumstance when I would see your face
Where I could take your hand, a kiss, a simple taste
And run away from everything and make my great escape
When I could end this chase and find some damn contentment
Instead of throwing punches at the world with my resentment

I guess I’ve never learned my lesson, well, maybe I don’t want to
But I would study every word at the moment that I saw you
Cause if I had ever lost you, I’d be right back where I’m sitting
With the world upon my shoulders and a tear to signal quitting
And a heart that’s slowly splitting, torn between the madness
Of a damning kind of solitude and your tantalizing panic
Where everything imagined is the everything that’s happened
And we could take the world with invigorating passion

So I say my sweet good bye and I wish you all the best
May the weight I always carry never fall upon your chest
Just remember that I’ll be here and I’ll hold you in my dreams
The picture perfect haven where I’m solid at the seams
And with a smile and a gleam, I will take my final glance
I’ll gaze at all your beauty and remember that I can’t
Then I’ll let go of your hand and take back all my trust
Cause this has been my own love poem to the no one that I love

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