So it looks like my pessimism was a little over done. I got in to work today and instantly started asking the people from Merch/Inventory whether or not my move back there was going to happen. They both agreed that I needed to talk to a sales managers because, simply put, they might not want to take someone like me off the sales floor. I managed to pull thesales manager off to the side and explained my situation. I told him I wanted to get off the sales floor for a bit and was tired of being the guys who has to fix everyone else’s mistakes. I could tell he wasn’t thrilled, but he said he’d think about it. As I was leaving, I asked him if he came to a conclusion and he said “I really don’t want to lose you because you’re probably our most knowledgeable sales guy, but if this is what you want and it’ll make you happy, I’m ok with it.” I told him I was sure and he said he’d talk to the inventory manager and figure out how to squeeze me back there.

It’s funny, though. I had a good day at work today. Sure I had to fix two big sales mistakes before noon time, but it was easy for me. The customers were nice, the managers stayed out of the way, and time seemed to fly by. However, I’m not going to let one day change my mind. I know what I’ve been feeling and I know how miserable every other day has been for me. It’s a dilemma. I really love working with home theater equipment, but I’m sick of working with people who don’t give a shit. I try to defend the company when people use the stereotype that the sales people don’t know and don’t care, but it’s too true. Plus, we’re getting a different supervisor in Home Theater. The guy who’s coming in to take over was there once before and was basically forced to leave because no one could tolerate him any longer. I actually wound up snapping on him once and screamed out this entire diatribe about how he needs to stop talking to me like I’m his kid and show some damn respect. It was pretty bad, so I know I can’t work with him again. Once he gets the position officially, the power will flood his brain and I’d be screwed.

I’m not going to lie and say I’m not anxious, though. I’m comfortable in Home Theater. I know more than anyone else and I’m the go to guy. It’s easy, even if it is depressing to be there. Merch is going to offer a new challenge. I have to learn more about the planogram system and how to go about a new daily job. I’m nervous and anxious and part of me keeps whispering to “stay in home theater and deal”. The fact is, though, I can’t. I need more hours and I need to go full time. I need to be a man and grow up. I’d wind up killing someone if I had to spend 35+ hours in Home Theater a week and that’s what I keep reminding myself. You have to be happy and you have to be sane. However, any words of encouragement from you wonderful people would be much appreciated. Thanks