Xpression.v2

Weight of You (4/5/2006)

With the game on the TV, I still have to mute the sound
So I can take a few minutes, so I can try to figure out
Just exactly what went wrong and why I feel lonely
I opened up to you, but it’s clear you don’t know me
Now the distance is growing and damn I feel empty
I’m always thinking of you, wishing that someone would get me
The thoughts feel so heavy as they weigh on my mind
And inside, the pain wears me as I go through the grind
Until I find, that maybe things are better this way
We never knew what we wanted, in truth, anyway
So I say, with regret that it might be the last time
That I hope we can fix this and make everything right
And make everything fine cause I’m still willing to try
I’ll do whatever it takes to get this weight off my mind
To escape what’s inside, even if just for a moment
A chance to reconcile or just face this and close it
And patiently hold it as we deal with our issues
It’s so hard to admit, but for real though, I miss you
I wish it would hit you, that I still care much about you
And the hope isn’t there when I fair life without you

But what’s left to say that still hasn’t been said?
I can’t get through a day, though, without you in my head
I think about you instead of whatever I need to
And I’m lost in the nothing, that’s all that it leads to
The walls I can’t see through, they leave me with questions
Doubts that consume me as they fill me with tension
And just at the mention or the sound of your name
I start to think about you and how I’m insane
I think about all the games that we used to play
The world that I carried to help make your’s okay
I wish you would stay, but you do what you need to
Just remember to smile and go where life leads you

Notes: This one started off so well and then I really hit a wall. The first half took almost no time to write, but the last 16, or so, lines took almost 45 minutes. I just don’t know what to think about the situation and I just didn’t know what to say. I tried my best.

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