Lost in Complacence
Lost in Complacence (3/10/2006)
I’m trying to write shit, though I’m failing to rhyme it
These words I don’t know that still lack all the vibrance
Leaves me here mindless with blood behind eyelids
I’m stuck in the ways that I use to upright this
I’m trying to fight this, but I can’t seem to get it
I jot some words down then I lose the next sentence
I just want to vent this, but I can’t fucking nail it
Another one lost cause I just can’t exhale it
And I hate fucking failing, but I won’t go with lying
If I don’t know the words, then I won’t go on rhyming
But I’m losing my timing and I’m losing the essence
I’m losing the joy that was held in each message
I want you to get this and I want you to read it
But without any words, shallow wells get depleted
Have I simply exceded the limits of talent?
Or have I completed this mission of balance?
Have I walked through this challenge with nothing to show for?
The life never seen cause it’s not what you hope for
With nothing to go for and no reason or passion
The world starts to fall as I feel me lose traction
I can’t heal the reaction, this bleeding of spirit
The light that I sought, well, I’m thinking I fear it
Cause everytime I get near it, I scramble for darkness
And I pray that the pain will find me as it’s target
Be the fate that I’m charged with and always inspire
Beating me down in my dreams of a writer
The lonliest fighter with nothing to hope for
But, known as a writer, with something to show for
Notes: Man, this was was hard to get through. It’s actually the third attempt at writing in the past 24 hours. I finally got fed up after losing two pieces to a simple lack of insight. It’s rough (really rough), but hopefully it’s a step in the right direction.
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