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CCD Prayer 2006 (1/31/2006)

Lord Jesus, I come to you in spite of procrastination
I don’t know what to say, I’m surrounded by aggravation
It’s no exaggeration that I’ve been hurt by accusations
From the voices down inside me, it’s not my imagination
But am I such an aberration that I’m bound to my own failings
Everybody’s moving on and I feel as though I’m trailing
I watch them as they’re sailing, but I have no wind for guidance
I try to listen for you but I can only find this silence
Still, I try to show your vibrance and get inside their heads
The kids that sit before me with the whole world on their desks
And I’m preaching from my chest and I’m always trying harder
To be the man they need to see that you’re their father
Cause I know you’ll get them farther than I could ever try to
But I’m intent on being honest and hoping that they find you
While the world tries to disguise you, I look for revelation
To explain to them the beauty inside of all creation

As much as I have tried to, though, I think that I’ll be selfish
And ask you for your help in a time when I feel helpless
I could whisper, I could yell this, I just pray that you can hear me
I need a little light to help my heart see clearly
I mean it so sincerely when I speak of my confusion
Every rhyme that I dictate is my try at absolution
I can’t fight the mind’s delusion that I’ll simply never match up
The strain’s too much to take as I’m always playing catch up
Against what I think’s stacked up, this whole world of opposition
Running, stuck in neutral, my heart’s in the stop position
I pray that I’ll find hope, and I pray to not be perfect
Cause every made mistake is your lesson and my purpose

Notes: Every year, I make my religion class write their very own prayers. I always join them in this assignment.

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