Tailor of Anger
Tailor of Anger (1/2/2006)
Sometimes I find it’s hard to simply keep control of my temper
I guess it only makes sense when you’re put underneath this pressure
Cause my anger’s like a measure of the weight that makes me snap
Next thing I know, I’ve lost control and I can’t regain it back
Though, I know I could retract my statements, give apologies
Sometimes I do, but often not, it’s a fickle part of me
I just find it’s hard to see between the bursts of anger in me
This is a role that’s never old, I just find it kind of fits me
Cause the way it can bewitch me and incense my greatest darkness
It’s like the love that’s from a drug that gives to you regardless
And it helps me find a target even times when I don’t have one
I spray and hope for victims with this verbal kind of handgun
Meanwhile, I’m still the sad one and just nothing’s been accomplished
I get so dumb within the hate, I lose faith in being honest
Like the time I spent in college and was given too much freedom
An open canvas will drag you down if you don’t know how to read one
But, damn I’m glad to be one, though I know it sounds so lame
I can’t write out the reason but I know I love this game
Cause it seems to keep me sane, well, enough to keep me level
Though, the writers block often leaves me so disheveled
I don’t know what I’m writing and I don’t know what to say here
I’ve tried to keep my cool while the rage still tries to stay here
And I always try to stay clear of the fights and stupid arguements
Even though it may not seem, I’m never the one starting it
I just tend to warm and harbor it and add my fuel into the fire
Then shit gets kind of crazy and the hatred climbs much higher
Cliched, but not a liar, is the label they often give me
Fuck you too, I’ll bust you too, and pray you don’t forgive me
Notes: Not my strongest piece ever, but good enough to post and not scrap. I’m just looking at my short temper, a bit. The last line is meant to be a little ironic and symbolic of the cycle I go through and how easily the switch can get flipped. Yes, it’s also meant to contrast the rest of the poem in a funny way.
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