Xpression.v2

Revolving Memories (1/2/06)

Looking through your pictures, I just wish that I could tear them
And throw away the memories and find the pieces to repair them
I’d walk away from the past and never stop to question
The words we said, the things we did, and why it leaves depression
But I’m stuck here guessing what I did wrong and how I can avoid it
Two people with a gift of love, but they couldn’t just enjoy it
Does that void it? Does it matter? Does it change around the meaning?
Is it really love at all if both people wind up bleeding?
Was it only puppy love or our own infatuation
And we made it into love somewhere behind imagination
But the way it saturated and consumed up all our time
It really makes me stop to think and hope that it was right
Cause somewhere, in my mind, it has never stopped existing
Thoughts and cares and worries to which I’ve always tried resisting
Praying to whomever trying to give back all I’d taken
The promises that I had made with no intent to break them

As our roads drift more apart, I can still hear mental echoes
The way that you once talked to me with love right from the get go
But, though we never said so, I think we knew right from the start
That all our doubts would overcome and tear us both apart
And it breaks my fucking heart to know we gave it all for nothing
Both of us had room to grow and we didn’t want just one thing
Cause we both had different goals in life and way too many choices
The words we said were lost behind the changes in our voices
So the pain remains so cloistered behind everything that I remember
I wish I could forget it all right back to that September
But etched it is and will remain, it’s one of life’s great hurdles
I wish that it would simply fade unlike your ring of turtles
Cause revolving in these circles of this painful recollection
Always leaves me weakened as I stare at my own reflection
The face you loved, the face you hated, the eyes that look so cold now
The times that never faded even if I’m on my own now

Notes: Nothing to say about it.

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