Xpression.v2

Final Rejections (11/5/2005)

It’s so hard to keep strong and hold my conviction
When my eyes behold such a darkened depiction
I can’t change my vision as I head towards collision
To a life of destruction with no chance of revision
So, hand me the scissors and I’ll cut out my veins
And pour out the weight that still drives me insane
I’ll spell out your names with tears from my wrist
And squeeze every drop from this life taking slit
Into darkness, I’ll slip and I’ll find consolation
No more god damn rejection in my allocation
The light’s my frustration that burns through my eyes
I try to use lies to block the pains that I hide
Cause the love’s my demise, so why should I try
I’m better hidden away where I can’t touch your life
Let me cower and hide and escape more rejection
Since I have no more pride to use for protection

But why paint this picture and why say these words?
To be honest with you, I can still feel the hurt
The pulses in nerves that hide in obscurity
The only thing true and the only thing pure to me
But don’t send your cure to me, don’t make me hide it
The pain’s who I am and I’ll just have to like it
There’s no point to fight it when I’ll never escape it
I’m losing the hope and I’ve lost all my patience
I’m better off faceless and hidden in shadows
Where the world of emotion will hinder me shallow
No more trying to take it and bear it all with a grin
When the man who I was has now rotten within

Notes: Not much to describe. The title uses the plural for a reason.

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