Xpression.v2

A World of Expectations (10/30/2005)

I’ve been locked in this shell and it’s always gone well
Just me and myself and no things that you sell
But then somewhere I fell and the walls started breaking
The things I can’t tell cause the floor won’t stop shaking
So, fuck expectations, the lies you desire
I’ll always be me and won’t live as a liar
Throw gas on my fire, try to burn my existence
I’ll always aspire even through your resistance
Cause every insistence that I change and be open
What the fuck did you say? Have you not read my poem?
The one where I cried and the one where I broke down
The lines that I scribbled and bled as I wrote down
They come out my throat now as I scream them in fury
My critics are few, they’re my trial and jury
You think you can cure me? Try, but you’re not her
I’d rather be lone than lie, say I got her
Cause you’re not a doctor, just as fucked up as I am
The difference between us, there’s a pen here in my hand
I write with the passion while you choose self destruction
But don’t lay shit on me, try to plant your corruption
I’m angry, an asshole, a cold blooded something
The guy you don’t want, a life that is nothing
Crawl back to your alley and just let me expire
I’d rather be lone that have discomfort beside her
But, yet I still try her and attempt to be different
Kisses as poison, but they’re so damn persistent
I don’t need your assistance and I can’t deal with caring
You’re pretty and thoughtful, I’ve got nothing for sharing
So pack all your bags and leave me alone now
I’m tired of being the one to be thrown out
Fuck every rumor and all your damn expectations
I’m nothing you need, question mark, exclamation

Note: I haven’t enjoyed a god damn second of it because I’ve been made to feel like everything I am is wrong. How can liking a chick become so damn complicated every damn time?

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