Recycled Anger (10/31/2005)
There’s echoes in my head of the words I never said
Doubt becomes anxiety and then I feel regret
And so I get upset and vent it out as hatred
Anger to the people who didn’t need to take it
Frustration fills the spaces of the holes, no inspiration
I’ll throw it on the fire in a fit [...]
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A World of Expectations (10/30/2005)
I’ve been locked in this shell and it’s always gone well
Just me and myself and no things that you sell
But then somewhere I fell and the walls started breaking
The things I can’t tell cause the floor won’t stop shaking
So, fuck expectations, the lies you desire
I’ll always be me and won’t live [...]
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Man, I have a million things on my mind and nothing all that interesting to say.
Work continues to get more “testing”. Anthony was moved out of the department and I’m basically the only veteran back there. We have two other people who have been around for a while, but they’re two busy flirting with [...]
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Trying to Make Sense (10/29/2005)
I try to sit and think just to keep myself preoccupied
My stomach starts to sink when I see what I got locked inside
I try to get my conscience right and focus on my goals
Though I much prefer this rotten life, when you’re there beside the road
And just showing that you’re gold [...]
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Write rhymes of your own? Have a flow? I’m dying to do another collaborative rhyme/poem. Contact me if you’d be interested in doing a piece with me.
Update: For those a little uncertain, here is an example of my last and only collaborative work.
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On Our Own (10/26/2005)
I’m not as bad as you all may think
I’m not as wrong as I always seem
This is my only chance to hide
Behind the words of another fight
But, surely, even then
You can see how I treat my friends
Giving all that I have in me
Judgement comes as a tragedy
And yet I’ll be…
And yet I’ll [...]
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So many random things in my head.
Today, at work, an Army recruiter approached me. I humored him and gave him my info and all and listened while he talked. I guess recruiting has become a lot like selling TV’s because I could very easily pick up on the little nuances in what he was [...]
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Inner Rubble (10/23/2005)
Locked behind the shell of all the confidence I’m lacking
I’m so lost inside a hell of a life with paper backing
It’s hard, I’m always tracking and looking for deception
And pray that you’ll attack me with the plans of your conception
So at the smallest little mention of a word that could be hurtful
I let [...]
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Well, it was my mom’s birthday yesterday and now mine today. I’m 22 years old, man. Time fucking flies. It still feels like, just yesterday, I was turning 18 and graduating from high school. Twenty two years old…Damn, I’m old.
Update: My birthday thread at Neowin, created by calidude, can be found here.
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Much respect to “Flaw”……that’s all.
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