People are all around me. I work in retail where I deal with hundreds of people a day. I work on a popular website which results in dozens of people contacting me daily. I live in a house of 4 other people and my mom is going to, soon, be watching 4 kids. Everywhere I look, there’s people and no privacy, no quiet. I’m anti-social as it is, but this lack of peace makes it even harder for me to do things like meet girls (I’d like a few more chances to screw up relationships or at least deal with true nutcases as I often attract them). Then again, if I meet a girl, it would take a lot of time to get to the point where we could sit there in silence and be content. I miss that feeling. I think I got myself a little addicted to it. I wasnt’ alone, but I had my peace and quiet. It was nice. There was no chaos raining down on me. I miss that.

Basically, I’ve just been feeling run down lately. I go to work and work my ass off dealing with asshole customers and clueless employees. Thursday, I got this happy as hell Russian named Paul as a customer. It was a small sale, only $600, but it was so nice being talked to like a human being and even being thanked for being so helpful. Hell, he was so nice, I carried his stuff to the door for him. I’m so tired of fighting through every sale and then coming home and getting more shit from the kiddies over at Neowin. It really is draining and demoralizing.

I don’t know what else to say. I’ve given up on Maria and it honestly doesn’t bother me in the slightest. I’ve seen it coming, so I was prepared. Kristen read my profile which is amusing to me. I have a plugin where I could set the site to not show every post on the front page, but I think I’m starting to like it this way. The new Staind album rocks. That’s about it.