Xpression.v2

Two Sided Reflection (8/26/2005)

I see you peaking at me and I think you know it too
Are you thinking you can trap me even though I said it’s through?
Yeah, I think the worst of you after everything that happened
But I try to keep my cool and force me to be passive
But, damn, it’s so attractive and ever so damn tempting
To come around your corner for a little bit of venting
Fucking with your head and getting you all worked up
But, there’s nothing to be said and little left to stir up
Even now, I’ve used my words up, draining every thought
Using you for anger, I remember how we fought
And so, the past is lost and it’s funny how I’m better
I’m not blaming you for everything, that’s another whole damn letter

Magic is as magic does, we had our fifteen minutes
Occupying others with our lives ’til it was finished
Making people crazy with our doubts and insecurities
Everything was “maybe” but we said it so assuringly
And everything seemed sure to me, cornered by assumptions
Our relationship broke down, well, I guess it never functioned
We crashed at every junction ’til you chose to turn away
You chose another path and I was left to find my way
But, now I’m not afraid, I’m much stronger than I was
This rhyme gives it away, that I’m no longer giving up
Just pass to me my cup and I’ll drink up all your pain
You can hurt me all you want but I’ve adapted to the rain
Cause, no, I’m not the same, I’ve broken that addiction
Though I’m sure that some would say that it was more like an affliction
Like a tragedy of fiction, but a movie come to life
Where the hero dies to live and set it back right

But, let me end this rhyme, before I come off like a martyr
That wasn’t my intention, dealing’s just been harder
Though, I’m able to go farther if you make me run the race
I’ll even end right here and wait for you to set the pace

Back Story: I debated whether or not I would mention Kristen by name. Was I that angry still or could I reflect more maturely? I tried conveying that progression in this poem. Just when the first stanza seems to be leading to an angry rhyme, I take a breath and redirect it, a bit.

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